Always try to believe the best out of everyone

of friends

2012-01-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

As for me, I’m really straight forward with the people I’m closed with. Mostly, my close knit group of friends knows the real me, stripped down to the core; how patient i am and how silly I can be. For some, i don’t need to say anything because even before i spill it out, they've already guessed it first. Correctly. I admire these people. Thank you so much for being here in my life as great companions. I appreciate all of you for your sincerity, support and also for being patient listeners during sticky situations.

Based on past experiences, losing someone dear to you/you loved (forever) is something that no one wants to go through. But unfortunately God willing, I did. All that I can say with great certainty is that – never ever take anyone for granted. Repeat that in your head until you get the gist of it. No matter how bad that person has treated you, treat them back with kindness. While these people around you are still breathing, cherish them, resolve all arguments before it gets worse, forgive them, help them, always try your best to appreciate them before it’s too late. FYI I find forgiving people very calming. Less wrinkles from all the frowning!

On another unrelated note, I don’t really like to talk about this much but today I feel like writing a thing or two about it. Marriage. For me, it’s a really scary thing that’s why I don’t talk about it much. I feel scared even thinking about it, why? Nowadays, wives gets cheated by their husbands, husbands hide mistresses from their wife for years, divorces, domestic violence etc. I don’t see the need to get married unless I found someone who is worthy of me, my trust, my loyalty, my effort and someone whom I can build a strong foundation with. It’s like riding a boat, this boat is life. You will meet high winds and high waves representing tests. A smart captain and co-captain will work together in order to get the boat safely to its destination. Thus, I need a good captain on the steering wheel.

When in a relationship, I commit to it; for better or for worse. Once that trust is broken, I’m scared of getting deeply hurt again (refer paragraph 2). Until that day comes, until someone could convince me otherwise, I don’t mind waiting.

pointless

2011-09-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

My friend's right, she deleted her blog and now i find this blog, pointless as well. I dont see why do i need to continue on writing when there's no motivation driving me to do so. I've lost the passion to write, I've lost that feeling. All i see is a blank white canvas that only gives me a writer's block. It used to be something that i love, to put memories into words, to rant just about anything. I am the type of person who gets bored easily...i strive for having adventures in life, in order to be happy...you must do the things that makes you happy and be surrounded by people who makes you happy. Im thankful for those people, Aminnn. But i dont see the point of writing anymore, i hate restrictions, please let this spirit fly free. prolly going to try tumblr now. lol.

selamat hari raya

2011-09-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin to all.
I have no words to decsribe this year's incredible Raya celebration with the family. Although di dalam kegembiraan ada juga kesedihan, tapi all in all it's something to be remembered. Most of all, THE FOOD OMG SO GOOD :D But it is the last year that i'll be getting duit raya :(( cheers!

:)

2011-07-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

got this from a friend and he agrees as well. i love this piece. if you've already got one like this, then he is a real keeper ladies...lucky us! :D

"You may not be her first, her last or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together.
but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes..
hold on to her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you every second of the day,
but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break, her heart.
So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyse and don't expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad,
and miss her when she's not there."

Bob Marley.

fly

2011-07-07T16:43:00.000+08:00

Mariah Carey - Butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise

Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly.

Anni

2011-04-11T12:58:00.001+08:00

he actually wrote something in the card...finally <3

He told me that he didn't had any time to devise any elaborate plan on our Anniversary due to his hectic working life and that he didn't manage to find me a gift. I was all okaylahh xpelahhh in front of him when actually i was pretty sad inside because i would be the only one giving a gift...not fair right?! haha! this went on through the whole night in which i tried really hard NOT TO be sad or anything and tried to compose myself, keep my cool, it's okay i'm so going to ask for a double present next time! hah!

But then, i think he knew how bad i'm at lying and sadness was written all over my face no matter how i tried to hide it. So, he went out for a bit, came back with the above picture and a card on top, which he had prepared in advanced. BOO YAH. All nicely wrapped with the sweetest card, haihh. My face instantly lit up and i told him he could seriously win an award in acting because i really fell for his sad story. thank yoooooou for the surprise present, i love it :)

Saisaki, our first FEW plates

I'm a Japanese food freak and Saisaki is a buffet style restaurant in KL where we had our dinner that night, it serves Japanese, Korean and Thai food. Although he's NOT a fan of sushi he he he but when it comes to celebrations, it is my classic excuse to come and eat here! hea-vennn.

I've never been happier with anyone else except when i'm with you, you bring joy and happiness into my life and it seems so effortless. I can be very annoying, stubborn and impossible sometimes and yet you stay. Thank you very much for your dedication, love, care and attention that has been nurturing our relationship as time progresses. Now, I've realized that my feelings for you just keeps on growing everyday. As my guards are down, this is me raw and at my most vulnerable, placing my gentle beating heart straight into your palms..i know it'll be safe with you, always. You've made me fallen in love with the real you and not just a whole bunch of words. This fall is nothing i ever expected but everything that i could ever wanted. All i know is that it could go one forever, IF nothing gets in the way :) Love You Mucho, hopefully to kingdom come yo!

happy birthday love

2011-02-09T00:20:00.001+08:00

A Birthday shout out to the most awesome and wonderful boyfriend ever..

For my simply irresistible boyfriend,

Someone who tells me what is right when I’m wrong,

Who is capable of reading my innermost thoughts,

Who always makes me laugh and knows how to bring a smile to my face

Even when I don’t want to,

Someone that I can always count on,

Someone who stole my heart away,

& that I’m head over heels in love with,

Happy 27^th Birthday,

I could buy you a thousand bouquets of flowers

But it’ll wither anyway…

I could bake you countless boxes of cookies

But that would only give you diabetes…

“I could buy you all the expensive gifts”

But those are only words cos’

I don’t have the money anyway… :P

Therefore, I wish you love and laughter,
health, happiness and cheer,
I hope your aspirations will become a reality,
I hope you’ll be exactly what you really want to be,
For you’re a really special person,
who deserves the very besttt =)

I hope you’ll enjoy the rest of the coming year..

& I love you soooooooooo muchochoo =D

xoxoxoxo

there’s no gravity to hold me down from you <3

we rock! :D :*

heartbeat

2011-01-21T16:14:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with Enrique's newest hit featuring Nicole, heartbeat. The beat nails it for me, and Nicole' s sultry voice came out as really sexy. She's like whispering instead of really singing especially when she says 'ooohh give it to me boyy' haha - i just can't get enough of that song OMG (i'm not bored of it yet). If i'm going for a jog, this would be the song that i would repeat over and over again, and just keep on running. LOVE IT. Sigh, it has been a pretty rough week, with the pressure of completing piles of assignments, having food poisoning that made me feel so weak these past few days and on top of other things - the timing of it all is just well, perfect. A super perfect start to a whole new year that depicts how the rest of the year is going to be like.

Thanks to *** mamak, I've got a new bestfriend - Mr Tandas, having to cling to him every half an hour after every meal. With that, they've just lost one really good customer! (as if one is going to make any difference). Truth be told, i'm really scared. I'm really scared of not being able to finish up all the assignments and PASS em, they carry a lot of weight not only in terms of marks but the content of it as well. To critically analyse and read 4 pages of a 12 page article is like death - oh wait, there's 8 pages more -_- and that is just one article out of the other 30+ articles to go through. *migraine attacks*

I'm trying the best that i can to balance that, and life. However when you're really stressed out it affects the other aspects of your life as well. I can't focus on ONE SPECIFIC thing at a time, to be studying from dusk till dawn is freaking exhausting. Thus by the end of the day, i need an outlet to release all of that tension, back pain and not to mention the sleepless nights. To really just have a laugh and escape from it all, just for a little while would truly be liberating -- *do that while listening to Heartbeat* <--- really an icing on the cake ehehehehe

maybe i should start a Tea session every evening with my friends, no mamak please >_<

'I can feel your heartbeat...running through me..'

i'm hooked!

pick me up

2011-01-10T16:08:00.002+08:00

i lalalalove 'em songs :D such sweet songs, makes you feel all excited inside. All i know is that when you enjoy the delight of another person's company and there's the joy you feel in your own, you know it's love. Its the kind that expands your heart and makes you feel good, consistently. These songs reminds me of just that, the great love that you've given me, it's AWESOME. There ain't nothing better, im sho ;)

Bruno Mars - Marry You (no pun intended)

Usher - There goes my baby

Ne Yo ft Jermaine Dupri - One in a mill

Katy Perry - firework

new year

2011-01-03T16:42:00.010+08:00

Happy New Year!

for 2011, i pray to God that by the end of the year i'll be a proud graduate of Taylor's and i would be able to find a decent job that does not spell, AUDITOR (lets forget about life and work like robots) on its description. Please be nice to me oh dear 2011 and protect everyone that i love from harmful things.

As for my mother, i pray that you would lessen her burden as she has been an inspiration to so many people. I know that you might have instilled super powers in her making her a superwomen -- juggling a super hectic work schedule while taking care of 4 very loving but stubborn children (without losing her mind). Hence please give her ample of rest and the happiness that she deserves. (maybe throw in a couple of limited edition LV's because she really loves 'em) :P

As for the rest of the family, Amir: please bring him back to earth, away from this misleading adolescent phase of his. Let him grow out of it and be an independent person (in other words,please GET OUT of the house and get a life). Hazim: give him happiness, health and the strength to take on real responsibilities that comes after marriage. Abg M: Babies are such cute bundles of joy, may you'll be blessed with a healthy one this year.

As for my lovely boyfriend, you've blessed him with an amazing family and surrounded him with many friends. He is an amazing person, please guide him to a successful career without changing the way he is. I pray for his happiness and health as well. In hopes that i would be able to be there every step of the way.

As for the others (friends), i wish that all of you would have another year filled with happiness and good health. May all of us be a better servant to God and a better person as a whole. *winks*

Changing the world begins with changing ourselves. kudos!

traits

2011-01-02T11:32:00.011+08:00

what makes you a man?

he's always polite to other people and respects the elderly but just with you he agrees that sometimes they can be a bit annoying haha
he has a healthy attitude towards money; he never brags on how much he has spent for you
he takes out the trash even when maggots are crawling up his arm
he can lift you up and carry you around the house
he lets you conquer the couch and doesn't mind lying on the floor
he doesn't mind giving you a foot massage
he's an outdoor sports enthusiast
he's literally happy as long as you're happy
he strives for the best -- of the both of you, no matter what his goals are.
he washes your car after washing his car and his mother's car, all by himself instead of going to the car wash
he washes the dishes even when you're around to do it for him
he washes the clothes and dries them off when no one is around
he's willing to listen when you just can't stop talking
he acknowledges your feelings before doing anything ***a big plus plus
he lets you have the last piece of a shared dessert
he ends a previous relationship because it wasn't working out, instead of cheating
even when he had only slept for less than 4hours, he wakes up the next day to take you out for lunch because he promised (a man of his word)
he knows his responsibilities and owns up to them -- he sets priorities
when the going gets tough and you're all over the place, he remains calm, cool and collected :)

and the list continues to grow :) However, his answer to this particular question, (do you know what makes u a man??) was one that had me smiling for the rest of the day; 'You'.

huh, really????

LOVE YOU TO BITS. boo yah.

..

2010-12-20T20:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you just feel as though you're trapped and there's no one to hear your plea. There's so many things to say but people just wouldn't take the time to really understand you, it will either result in a misunderstanding or just further complicate things when that's actually the thing that you're trying to avoid. Until it comes to a point where things are better left unsaid and be kept only to oneself. Then the next thing you know, there's an overflow of tears running down your cheeks in sadness when the weight becomes unbearable at the thought that your feelings might only matter to you, but it goes unnoticed to others. It is unjust, but thank God, we have He who listens and that's all that matters. I guess, patience plays a really big role in everything. oh well, chin up.

stress release

2010-12-15T15:44:00.005+08:00

All these assignment deadlines...it's driving me up the wall. My boyfriend sent me this, this is so cute HAHA

Di sini terdapat beberapa langkah senaman yang boleh menghilangkan rasa mengantuk dan tekanan. Kepada mereka yang selalu rasa mengantuk ataupun tengah mengalami tekanan, Sila ikuti dan lakukan senaman ini. Selamat Mencuba!!

LANGKAH 1

Ini adalah ala taichi sikit la… sebagai permulaan untuk memanaskan badan..

LANGKAH 2

Tiru la macam ni… untuk melegakan bahu dan leher anda..

LANGKAH 3

wa..wa..aaa

LANGKAH 4

Gerak kekanan kemudian ke kiri..

LANGKAH 5

Gerak ke kiri kemudian ke kanan. Ikut sahajalah… jangan terpusing kepala sudah la..

LANGKAH 6

Tepuk kuat kuat kat dahi.. Ini untuk menghilangkan mengantuk..

LANGKAH 7

Selepas itu buat gerakan tangan dan badan… buat macam gembira je..

LANGKAH 8

Kemudian goyang-goyangkan kaki dan badan sedikit… Lakukan seperti kita tiada masalah…

LANGKAH 9

Lakukan secara agresif pula… Jangan peduli apa orang lain kata..

LANGKAH 10

Hilangkan semua tekanan…

LANGKAH 11

pusingkan kepala…

LANGKAH 12

tengok muka kat cermin sambil goyang2.. lawa tak…

LANGKAH 13

Akhir sekali lakukan joget kucing…

————–

Sekian….SELAMAT MENCUBA.

:) :)

2010-12-08T09:51:00.012+08:00

On the 28th of November 2010,

we went to a Japanese Garden, it was a great place for a breather. we climbed, cross bridges, looked cluelessly at plants with names that were impossible to pronounce, walked beside Koi fishes, and had a relaxing time hubba hubba

went to a French Village (above), a can of Soya costs rm6 here!

Really i would rather kiss a horse.

the weather was cold and it's a nice place to have walks and take pictures. too bad, i hate taking pictures.

ATE SUCHIIII!

poor thing my boyfriend caught a fever the next day, because his system just couldn't accept Japanese food. Sorry :D

so, all these plates here, it was ALL ME baby. he ate rice with meat something and stares uninterestedly at all the sushis on the conveyor belt. booo! but ate anyway :)

after dinner we went to cineleisure to watch Harry Potter, but sadly i slept all the way through, although it was actually my idea in the first place. ha ha.

We left half an hour earlier, sorry Potter fans.

can't stop starring..he presented me with this huge bouquet of flowers and a big card when midnight strikes. super freaking sweet, i cried.

he gave me this when i was about to leave the car, save the best for last.

on top of a wonderful day, this was the last surprise...jakun and happy.

in this huge/spacious card with ample of space to be written on,

this was the only thing written on it (done by the manufacturer..)

and of course, there's his signature at the bottom.

Only that. ha ha sweet and funnnnnnnyy.

I was told that we were going to Pavillion to watch Potter

however i was puzzled because we drove pass Batu Caves

and since when does it take forever to reach Pavillion?

And then my mind started whispering things,

are we gonna go see a waterfall?? no, better!

we're going to a place that we've been meaning to go all this while.

Riding a horse ain't easy as riding a bike yall, but it is damn fun.

you the man! guess who's on the white horse? me!

We strolled along the roads and climbed a small hill until we reached the top.

the view was awesome and it felt like we own the world.

this picture doesn't serve justice on how big the actual horse is! try it out pls.

meet whyty/tuchi/wati/lucas my new kitty!

he drove me all the way to Ampang on the birthday eve right after going to Alamanda.

Thank you for the sweetest gift ever - the sacrifices that you made.

my #2 boyfriend harassing a doll *wet kisses*

don't you just wanna melt? i'm a sucker for flowers, thank you. ;)

thank you for being the best boyfriend ever.
i'm deeply, head over heels in love with you.
just this once, just you, just us,
forever and ever.

you the man!
your birthday is coming in just 2 months and i'm doomed.
really, the pressure is on.

time wounds all heals

2010-12-03T16:19:00.005+08:00

to feel lonely when you're being left alone

to feel as if you're the one to blame

to be taking the blame and be the punching bag

to be needing more comfort than usual

to voice out and feel unheard

to be hoping for something that won't happen

and still hope for it

to feel sad when no one really does anything, to make it feel better

to be lacking the sense of security

to say stupid things and regret it afterwards
to bear the consequences of bad judgments

to feel unease, restless and mad

to just forgive & forget and just let it all pass
with a smile..

Is just the over complexity of life.

insanely head over heels

2010-11-29T16:52:00.005+08:00

And you've done it again. That was the best birthday surprise/celebration ever and i am completely speechless. It was a gift, that summed up everything that i love. It was a surprise because i didn't even know that we were going to celebrate, he told me he wanted to post phoned! twat.

Got a kitten - huge bouquet of flowers - big card - told me that we're going to go to Pavillion when actually we were gonna go horseback riding (and it was so much fun and so romantic lol) - went to a Japanese and French village - ate sushi - watched Harry Potter and received a really pretty necklace. :")

Thank you for the effort, thank you for the detailed planning that was done way ahead and although there was a little bit of lying involved, i would have to say that, this time it's okay :P

Dear #1 Boyfriend,

Thank you for introducing me to your family even when we were still new.

Thank you for entertaining me even while you are working.

Thank you for the flowers and all the surprises that you managed to pull off :)

Thank you for not complaining when I always pick shitty movies for us to watch.

Thank you for all the makanan, even though I’m really weird when it comes to food.

Thank you for waiting for me all the time, which is part of your life HAHA

Thank you for always remembering where we parked.

You are someone,

Who won’t care that I’m incapable of sitting still,

That I can’t grasp the concept of cleaning,

Someone who realizes,

That half of the decisions that I make,

Are usually the ones that I regret,

And I have the tendency to overreact at any given moment,

You are someone who knows how completely clumsy and silly I am,

But would still be there for me anyway & I’m completely head over heels in love with you for that.

Thank you for being such a wonderful person,

The way you take care of the things that you care about, hello??!!!

it’s inspiring!

You’re amazing sayang And i had a really wonderful day, the best!

Feelin so so blessed :)

Do you?

2010-11-26T18:33:00.002+08:00

When a guy can handle your flaws,
love you on your moody days,
kiss you when you don't look great,
and say you're beautiful no matter what happens,
he's worth loving.

check. :)

big grin

2010-11-18T17:28:00.001+08:00

Ok so, I'm always posting on mushy stuffs because sometimes i'm overwhelmed by my own feelings and i just have to write it down. Besides, no one wants to listen to you yaaaaap about your guy, it's boring! And, there's nothing interesting about accounting for me to write about besides it being the main cause of my increased stress level and recent baldness. I'm on my semester break for a week and it's not as relaxing as it sounds -- assignments assignments accumulating like a giant bowl of shhhhhhit.

Anyway, i'm quite speechless today because HE is not really a sweet talker kind of person, his emotions are personified by his actions, thus most of the time he will be the one listening. See that's why i mushy talk here?!

However, his answer just blew me away when i asked him this,

*well, he asked me first, but my answer was, DUNNO, money?" haha. Kidding, i want happiness.

ME: how about you?? Do you know what you want in life?

HIM: Yes

ME: ..yes?? ok in 5 years??

HIM:

I want you in my life

Inside my house

In my kitchen

In my bed

In my bathroom

In my pool *wth ade pool? eceh*

ME: Some more?? who's going to be in your car??

HIM:

Yeah, in my car too.

and you will always be, in my heart.

so straight forward, heh.

and then there's a really long pause - i think my heart just stopped beating. lol.

Thanks dude, made my day.

100th post

2010-11-16T16:45:00.004+08:00

I love,

How we met.
Your kisses. takes my breath away*
Your gorgeous hair.
How you notice the little mistakes that I do.
And laugh at me afterwards :D
The way you hold me when you’re behind me.
Your sweaty palms, but I hold it anyway :P
You never pressure me to do anything I don’t want to do.
How you’ll know when something is wrong.
You won’t stop until you find out why.
How calm you are, when I made u wait.
When you kiss my forehead before I leave the car.
You’re my best friend at the same time.
When we eat together.
When you cut my food for me.
When you worry.
Your hands.
When you bb me good morning, everyday (:
How we share everything (mostly) because we have nothing to hide.
You’ll stay up until 3 in the morning just bb-ing me about the silliest things.
And goes to work the next day without complain.
That cute face u make when u smile.
How we make fun of each other :P
Our tickle wars.
You respect me.
You bring out the best in me and make me happy
You make me feel special everyday

This list could never end, it just keeps on getting better.

haywire

2010-10-14T15:34:00.002+08:00

The drama of being in college is so stressful, i really need to be more patient and procrastinate less if i want to live until graduation day. *takes deep breaths* Since this is our last year here, i was hoping that the lecturer would greet us with a welcoming gesture instead of throwing assignment questions to our face on the very first day! say what??! but then i discovered that my timetable was pretty awesome since i don't have long gaps between classes therefore i don't need to attend evening classes yeay! The only hindsight is that i have 8 hours of classes on Thursday, straight without any lunch break whatsoever, how convenient. I don't know how to cope/deal with that for the next 6 months because we are all growing human beings that needs to be fed in order for us to have a functional brain, we're not robots. My attention span depletes after the first 2 classes and goes into day dreaming mode during the next 2 classes while pretending to listen to what the lecturer's talking about. Overall, its tough. Thank God i have this amazing/wonderful person that puts up with me when i'm being a total mess :) well, basically he just listens and supports. u rock dude. loves.

back to schoool

2010-10-04T13:35:00.001+08:00

Today would be the first day being back in college (final year) after so long, thus hours from now i'll be attending my first lecture, Financial Management. And the chaos begins. There's only one thing in my mind which is to end this treacherous grueling experience that is causing my brain to over process figures rather than words. If i was presented with an option to read Sophie Kinsella's books by the sea or to count Bill Gate's estimated worth, i'll choose the latter.

There's so much information that you can get in order to boost sales, minimise losses, estimate profit, debts and detect illegal accounting just by dissecting each one of these figures for decision making purposes - it is indeed a tedious/troublesome task and at times you would feel like killing someone but in the end, it's worth the satisfaction. Therefore in time, my college experience is going to end before i even know it. In other words, one has to remain serious about classes and other activities, but also make the most out of the time left. Going out with friends and having a good time once in awhile is nothing one should be stop doing as long as one is on track with one's academic schedule.

Note to self : If you've worked hard, and you've budgeted your time well then you'll have less things to be worried about for your final year. Just remember to keep an eye on opportunities and get ready to take on the world. haha.

*amin*

p/s: love MF so muchocho <3 thanks for the support and motivation dude! u rock my world big time.

let it be

2010-10-01T15:11:00.001+08:00

....whatever happens, it happens for a reason.
I ain't gonna fight it or stop it but i'm just going to let it be.

birthday wishlist

2010-09-30T17:22:00.004+08:00

I love everyone so much that i made it easier for them by making this list he he :

1. Daddy i really need a new phone, i have been using a pokey-slow 3G-less phone and people would think i'm so ketinggalan zaman. These days I think it's cool to have one that has 3G to fulfill the need for high speed data that caters for busy students :P

2. Rim's please? it's embarrassing to drive around with an ugly front tire that doesn't even bother to cover itself up. Mummy you know you need to grill those wheels :D

3. To melantak sushi gila gila sampai badan penuh dgn mercury sebab Japanese food adalah kegemaran, bersama Mohd Firdaus walaupun beliau tidak menyukainya bahahaha once a year baby

4. Ipod Touch? I'm in love with the things it can do : mp3 player, there's Ibook, Camera, Video recording, Maps & Games. But it's so freaking thin and i'm afraid that my giant ass would destroy it. So, yes? no? hm.

5. Pixie Lott's CD or Alicia Key's
6. Have always wanted a purrty necklace from Thomas Sabo
7. Cheese Cake
8. A pretty bookmark
9. Books
10. Anything that has a cat sticked/sewn/stitched on it
11. Purrty dangling earrings

I made this list only because someone asked and as far as i know it's the thought that counts (:
I don't really mind but no 3 is a must tho! sushiiiiiiiiiiii.

2010-09-27T15:39:00.001+08:00

Pain, you just have to fight through because the truth is, you can't outrun it and life always makes more. No matter how far life pushes you down, that one person (friends, lovers etc) who has your back when you have nothing else, is the one worth fighting for. That person who stayed by your side when every one else is pointing fingers -- they are the ones who truly cares about you in good, in bad, in parts or in whole, as they are the ones who gives strength, regardless. No one is perfect and you can't expect them to be because we all make mistakes. The trick is to breathe deep, wait for it to subside and find solutions. When it gets you where you least expect it -- you know what to do. GO ALL CRAZY & CRY A RIVER if that calms you down.

We live and we learn, that's how it is.

i cant sleep

2010-09-25T07:49:00.003+08:00

Random questions

if your boyfriend tells you he loves you, does his actions reflect that?

yes.

Does he make time for you on the weekends, and try to please you at times?

yes.

Does he consider your feelings in the words he chooses to use when talking with you?

yes.

Does he treat you as one of his top priorities, no matter how busy his work schedule is?

yes.

Does your guy show you respect in how he treats you?

yes.

On your birthday, does he make an effort to make you feel good?

its not until november but i know he will.

Does he show affection to you on a regular basis?

yes.

Does he speak kindly of you to others?

im not so sure ha ha

When arguing, does he play fair?

hmm. i guess so.

This is something to consider and also what I've learned when assessing your relationship. Guys express their emotions through their actions.

If your partner truly loves you, then his actions should convey overall respect, admiration and trust. He should treat you not just as your partner, but also as a friend.

He should take your needs into consideration when making big decisions that will affect both of you. He should be true to his word, and reliable. He should be someone whose character you admire.

If a man loves a woman, she will likely know by the way he treats her. If his words reflect that, then that is an added bonus. But, words in and of themselves carry very little weight when it comes to matters of the heart, especially when they come from the mouths of men.

So, when you get down to it, they are actually pretty simple creatures. They are often driven by their ambitions and they like to have their needs met.

Unlike us, they do not like long talks :)

So ignorant of me to think otherwise, you rock dude!

p/s: this blog has turned into mushyness overload he he

sigh

2010-09-23T13:37:00.002+08:00

will do anything for money....... :(

anything that doesn't go against my moral values..

other than that, sign me in.

*rolls sleeve*

sigh...this is so depressing..

extremely cheesy

2010-09-22T18:55:00.003+08:00

I promise to love and cherish all the days that we have together.

I promise to hold you when you need to be held.

And at any chance I can get.

I promise to keep my nagging to a minimum,

So that I won't bore you to sleep.

I promise never to take for granted of what I have..

That means you, of course!

I promise to occasionally concentrate and seem interested

While you talk about ships.

And I would promise to keep my childishness

To a minimum as well :)

(Well maybe not promise, but I’ll honestly try....)

I promise to keep each of our "roles" equal.

Enough, that's quite a lot of promises already..

We both play an equal part in our lives.

Although, my duties shall include:

Being your PA ha ha

Dude,

My life would be incomplete without you.

You compliment me in so many ways.

And I am so glad that we are together.

I absolutely love spending time with you.

You are all that I had ever asked for..

And so much more.

Thank you for everything you have ever done for me

And will ever do for me.

Loves (F&A)

Are you puking already? I'm puking myself.. gosh

p/s: ..funny when you accidentally miss pronounced ‘beach’ as ‘bish’ and ‘swim’ as ‘schwim’ the other day bahahahahha *tears* sorry, I just had to. Peaceee.

great weekend

2010-09-19T12:13:00.008+08:00

I seriously have forgotten how bbm sounds like due to the inefficient and slooow service of Maxis, tut tut? tit tit? ??? I've realised how addicted bbm can be. It's way easier compared to sms like the old days (sebelum blackberry wujud), because it saves money and u don't need to type loooooong messages (like an essay basically) in one go, its tiring. Anyway, i had a really great = awesome weekend as i couldn't believe i get to cover a lot of activities with a great bunch of people within a couple of days, although we were at a time constrain but it was really a great ending to my summer holiday! Pardon the repetition of the word 'great' because it was simply, well...great!

So, during these couple of days we made use of the time and went - for a buffet and had a really big breakfast and then continue on feeding adorable fluffy rabbits, chickens and turtles. We had a swim and roast ourselves in the sauna, stroll on the white sandy beaches enjoying the night breeze, sat leisurely on the balcony overlooking the vast sea calm and relaxed as the waves crashes beneath us, search for stars, took pictures particularly of the sea, a really beautiful peacock and posed at a kereta lembu, drove to a Thai joint for dinner, had fun playing foosball and carom, went to a Spa place just to sit at their outdoor lounge which has breath taking view of the sea although the sun was really piercing through our skin, went to a place we had never been to before and watch planes passing by landing in front of our eyes (jakun...), played Street Fighter with an arcade coin-operated game machine and finally drove all the way back and get all crazy and psycho in the car (well, that was only me..).

Eventhough it was unplanned/spontaneous, but i had a really wonderful time and i wouldn't trade it for the world. Feels kinda nice to fool around once in a while. YOU ROCK DUDE *barfs*

I miss the adorable fluffy rabbits already... till our next trip! :)

floating

2010-09-13T21:29:00.003+08:00

I don't feel at ease these couple of days, like something's not right. I sense that there will be hardship coming my way soon and capture all the fun away. Though it might not be as tormenting as the wrath of hell, but deep down inside i know that it's enough to squeeze me through my last drop of sweat. This feeling lingers in me, like a trapped secret waiting for someone to release it out in the open. The thing is, i have no idea whats been bugging me because so far life has been kind enough lately bringing happiness into my life. It might be the thought of going back to college - the sleepless nights, deadlines to catch and finals to score..after a long long long summer break that doesn't sound inviting at all. But, it might be other things too. hm. I just hope it doesn't take an unfavorable turn.

See, sometimes we girls are so twisted in our own little ways acting all smart by thinking too much about unnecessary things and what do we get??? wrinkles and headaches. And then we would start to think about anti-aging products and how much it cost and this and that....it never ends......i wonder how guys manage to put up with this??

ahhh life.

Mi amore

2010-09-09T23:18:00.006+08:00

I have no idea what I've done to deserve this, you're just impossible to be mad at.You rock dude!

A place to crash
I got you
No need to ask
I got you
Just get on the phone
I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to
What's weird about it
Is we're right at the end
And mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
I'm proud to say
I got you

And when you need a place to run to
For better for worse
I got you

Ain't falling apart, or bitter
Let's be bigger than that and remember
The cooling outdoor when you're all alone
We'll go on surviving
No drama, no need for a show
Just wanna say
I got you :D

Leona Lewis - I Got You

Eid ul-Fitr

2010-09-08T20:49:00.003+08:00

As the crescent moon is sighted, Muslims are gathered to celebrate the anticipated joyous occasion of, Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Hence, I take this opportunity to seek forgiveness from everyone if i have wronged you or hurt your feelings in any way possible. May Allah SWT bless us with happiness and good health, forgive our sins and keep us away from greed -- lets work only for the betterment of each other.

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

Be safe during the holidays, enjoy the mouth watering feasts and have fun! Yippie :D

2010-09-06T15:19:00.003+08:00

Random Survey
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?	haha a definite YES.
How do you flush the toilet in public?	like everybody else
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?	nope, its uncomfortable
Do you have a crush on someone?	nope, just in love :D
Name one thing you worry about running out of.	time to do yoga
What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?	garfield? haha
What is your favorite pizza topping?	cheesy pepperoni
Do you crack your knuckles?	YES, i crack em like a man
What song do you hate the most	Beautiful Day by U2
Did just mentioning that song make it get stuck in your head?	Nope, it gets shredded to pieces
What are your super powers?	i can eat SUSHI FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, is that even a power?
Peppermint or spearmint?	peppermint
Where are your car keys?	its with my brother, either its in his room or in his toilet bowl God knows
Whose answers to this questionnaire do you want to hear?	MFMF
What's your most annoying habit?	smell my boyfriend's armpits haha
Where did you last go on vacation?	Terengganu
What is your best physical feature?	my...nothing
What CD is closest to you right now?	Grown Ups dvd
What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator?	bread, milk and butter
What superstition do you believe/practice?	never use multiple plates or else you'll marry more than once. No........
What color are your bed sheets?	beige
Would you rather be a fish or a bird?	bird
Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?	yes
What are your favorite sayings?	actions speaks louder than words
What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower?	just random hums
If you could go back or forward in time,where would you go?	to the day i own a Ragdoll cat!
What is your favorite Harrison Ford movie?	not sure i don't like Indiana Jones
What CD is in your stereo?	Mariah Carey
What CD will be in your stereo in a few minutes?	Mariay Carey
How many kids do you plan on having?	hehe not more than four
If you could kiss anyone who would it be?	MFMF
What do you do when no one is watching?	make funny faces in front of the mirror :E
If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would be you?	plain Jane
Would you rather die in a blaze of glory or peacefully in your sleep?	peacefully, thanks
Coffee or Tea	tea please
Favorite musician(s)/bands you've seen in concert?	JASON MRAZ
Have you ever been in love?	Yes and am currently still weeee
Do you talk to yourself?	sometimes, who doesnt?

hehe i'll tell myself,'PLEASE stop fooling around and go do something useful!'. and then i'll turn to my laptop and go blog hopping. *slaps forehead*

Funny+Creepy

2010-09-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

His 'enthusiastic/feeling' epic facial expression made me rolling over the floor laughing and he is not even mouthing the lyrics right HAHAHA I cant take it!! *wipes tears* This is You-Tuber Keenan Cahlil, a kid that has treated us with a hilarious lip-synced version of Katy Perry's hit single Teenage Dreams. How old are you? I bet he feels really good after that. Way to go!

no regrets, just love <3

I could imagine

2010-08-19T16:03:00.005+08:00

I could imagine within years from now,

i would still be eager by the sight of your car pulling over to pick me up,

i would still laugh at your silly jokes,

& be in love with your laughter,

i would still be mad at you when you have all that smoke in my face,

i would still keep on counting our anniversary's,

that you are deeply appreciated,

i would still miss you even in a day of your absence,

i would still love to stroke your hair even though it has turn silver,

i would still be lazy to call you and let you do all the calling, hehe

i would still be happy to eat with you at that same place we always do,

i would still look at you the same way i did before,

but with much more affection & care,

ready to face anything life would bring us,

stronger, with no regrets.

such a beautiful feeling :D

Try

2010-08-19T14:51:00.007+08:00

It's really depressing by the type of friend that you have become due to what you're going through right now. It is a difficult thing to be dealing with a mid life crisis; work, love and family when everyone else is doing fine. I understand that at your age, opportunities are running low but i would rather see you be open about it instead of being unthoughtful/bashing others aimlessly and hurting those around you. I may not be a therapist but you need to know that people DO get out of this. I am HERE if you need someone to talk to and if you're having unnecessary doubts about yourself i will try my best to give you my own two cents, we've been through this before and i have told you countless of times that you are better than this.

However, judging by your actions recently, it's clear that you're overwhelmed by your own wall. The wall that keeps you separated from others who are actually trying to help. Treat this as a lesson and a meaningful experience to be learned from and accept it as it is. You're venturing on a lost cause when time isn't really getting any slower and eventually it would put you on the losing end if you continue to shell out like this. Instead, let it go and move on to so many other things out there that could lift you up. I'll always be happy for you whenever you've found your own true happiness. Sometimes, not everything that you want is what you need. This is as far as i go, you just need to find that strength inside of you to help/pull yourself out of this depressive cave.

I'm drained.

when i have enough

2010-08-13T10:14:00.006+08:00

..money i would like to invest em on these :

1. The new Ipod Nano, the best Mp3 player yet. It comes in many different colours, pretttyyy :D + i need a good one to replace the old one which is on the verge of kaput & it's not as cool + to accompany me while running + i listen to them during free times to get through the day. Doesn't it scream necessity to you?! I'm waiting for the price to go down..

2. PAINT MY CAR + rims. I think small cars are great handlers - it's easy to maneuver in tight spots and squeeze through traffic (wonderful), easy to park, fun to drive and last but not least, it's fuel efficient. However, having a Hummer is great too. BERANI POTONG?! *lanyak* haha

3. To collect as many earrings as possible as they are so many pretty ones out there. I've always love earrings and they are one of my weaknesses now. My habit for earrings isn't particularly stylish or exciting, i just want them simple but not boring - mainly the dangling ones and hoops.

4. Buy presents for loved ones until their 101st birthday :)

5. Dying to put my hands on this!! Iphone 4G. *licks screen*

6. Buy original CD's and not illegal counterfeits - Pixie Lott, Alicia Keys and others.

9months to go before stepping on to the real working world and start saving. kudos.

Ramadhan Mubarak

2010-08-12T09:53:00.003+08:00

It's Ramadhan! I would like to give my sincerest best wishes for this Holy Month of Ramadhan.

This month marks an important time in the Islamic calendar. Throughout this Holy Month, the universal element of Islam is evident as Muslims across the world take stock of their lives and their faith. One's responsibilities to The Almighty is reinforced through fasting, self preservation, encouraging empathy with and compassion for those who are less fortunate. And it's an honor to be given this opportunity to earn blessings.

By all means, whine less, pray more, face every obstacle with patience, forgive and forget those who have wronged you, be humble and NOT to PIG OUT during berbuka.

Have a Blessed Ramadhan everyone :)

Random thoughts

2010-08-09T00:02:00.006+08:00

some twinkling thoughts before i'm held hostage by my beloved bed :

1. How awesome it is to let time passes you by effortlessly and then go, 'OMG it's already midnight?! we should get going.' 24hours doesn't seem enough to fit those endless bickering conversations with you.

2. I'm glad that Ramadhan is just a few days away because i do think it's best to let the stomach rest/detox for awhile from force-feeding it again with crap/nonsense. And, to earn blessings ;)

3. I'm seriously disappointed by the type of friend that you have become recently. Of all the things that we have gone through when you were at your worse, i honestly didn't expect this. All i wanted is that you would be happy as well, is it that hard? *fed up*

4. I'm going to turn 21 soon! hee *big grin* but, i'm a little bit concern of how it is going to be. I'm more than delighted to celebrate it over a nice dinner, but someone is planning something and i'm worried that i won't be able to top it off when it's his turn. (because when he plans something, it won't just be balloons, flowers, cakes and candles) *sigh*

5. I need to come out with something that is; not overpriced, not too complicated that it requires specialized skills, memorable, more than what one expects, original and unpredictably sweet as a birthday gift. darn it. darn darn darn.

6. I have a girl crush on Pixie Lot (Victoria Louis Lot). I listen to her songs repeatedly and i youtube-d most of her live performances. Boy, she has an incredibly unique voice and she deserves to be famous! Her acoustic rendition of Kings of Leon's Use Somebody is awesome.

7. I love my best friends as much as i love my cats to bits. But, i might not be able to choose between the two. Friends or Cats? Yes. No. Hmmm. ARGH. See?

8. My guts is telling me that tomorrow will be a great day :D

(despite the fact that, it's a Monday and normally Monday's does you no good) I do hope so.

Well, I better get some sleep then and ponder on em thoughts later. Goodnight :)

doses of mushy

2010-08-05T20:16:00.010+08:00

So, it has been a kind Thursday, so far. I’ve worked up a sweat, watched The Kardashians, ate peanut butter and chocolate sandwich and now I’m about to write something really cheesy, do you mind? ;)

In the mornings, you’ll wake up with a smile when he greets you with a simple good morning wish. Or else, something is seriously wrong and I should be worried. He has loads of unsettled documents waiting for him and has tons of things to attend to but nevertheless, he never fails to check up on you from time to time. He is someone who is capable of building bridges or run up a mountain, if he wanted to. Simply because, he does more than what he says as the proverb goes, action speaks louder than words.

Within months, getting to know him was a blessing – it felt like years. He is someone who puts himself before others especially during tough times because he sets priorities unlike me (sedar diri..). Within minutes of spending time together, you’ll notice those little things that he does, makes you want to pinch yourself, like is he for real?! Or am i dreaming?! *pinches even harder* – cutting your food for you, acting all interested on how was your day like (nodding, asking questions, and laughs at the appropriate moments), always coming up with new places to eat at so that you won’t get bored, mind reads on the dessert that you’re dying to have at that very second.

He would hold you when there’s a big bumper ahead afraid that you would miraculously jump out of your seat and spring out through the window, and apologises afterwards, gets all cranky when someone isn’t treating you nicely, waits for you even though he is starving, drives all over KL just to find somewhere that you could enjoy eating at, driving and making you laugh at the same time, gives you flowers, wipes that stain on your mouth, makes sure that you’re okay and treats you right. Consistently.

Believe me, he has his flaws but I haven’t found it yet, not one that I can’t bear with so far :P (only that, he smokes & fakes a smile when he’s actually freaking tired. BOO!). Furthermore, we are world’s apart personality wise and in comparison I might sound (blabs) like the wise one, but actually he is. He talks less, and I whine all the time – that's when he claims to be a good listener which scores him points with the ladies.

However, I hate the fact that he has things under control and could even juggle a bicycle at the same time when I really am, a mess. I think its permanent damage, i couldn't be repaired. Once, we were eating at TGIF and i was trying to remain calm when actually it was so damn hard to cut through the chicken that I embarrassed myself and unintentionally made it fly across the table with people staring over. shitttttt. That was before we were together and oh how he enjoyed laughing afterwards?! Since that little incident, he cuts my chicken just to make sure we won't throw good food to waste. Haha. Malu. Or when we were both having breakfast together and I wasn’t being careful enough that I spilled Milo ice all over the table and all over his car keys. Again, making a fool of myself. But, he went to the counter and took some tissues to wipe it off the table – and unfortunately made it compulsory to mock me for the rest of the day. Is that really necessary? Boo you.

I could seriously go on and on forever, because of how grateful it has been having you around, its overwhelming :)

teeheee *pukes*

i feel sort of exposed writing all this but, my stomach is screaming for foooooood and i'm about to eat an elephant. have a nice weekend (:

thankfulness

2010-08-02T11:58:00.008+08:00

Pretty Things DO NOT COME FOR FREE, whether you asked for it, or not. Nothing comes for free?! okay either way i'm sure you get what i mean. Plant that thought because it is, the naked truth. Exceptions are as such; a mother's love, sperms & eggs and the air we breathe in. That's all that i can think of because even before we were conceived, money would be the main concern. Somebody would start cracking their heads, screaming who's going to pay for the doctor's bill?! (hospital fees, diapers, education, food and so on). Even life, has its price. To live a comfortable life, guess what comes in mind? Therefore, every little thing that we do in life, there has to be something in return.

Thus, when someone gives you gifts, they would expect a sight of awe when you opened it up and a big thank you hug afterwards (the least). When someone did you a favor, the least you can do is buy him/her lunch or go out for a drink to show a sense of appreciation. Or, when someone forgoes their time, money and social life just to be with you, the least you can do is to return the favor by showing how much you acknowledge their sacrifices. Happiness comes not from something that we lack, but from the recognition and appreciation of what we have and received. In this case when we truly desire to give back, i think love and support will always be remembered, fondly in good times and as encouragement in bad times. No gifts can represent what love and support means to someone, to show gratitude and be grateful of those who make you happy. Appreciate a smile, appreciate the company, appreciate the time lost and spent.

I just want to let you know, the things that you do for me, does not go unnoticed. You're a necessary piece that goes with me everywhere and i appreciate your dedication. I know that just by telling you this does not service you justice, but i'll try to repay you back somehow ;)

FYI, I do care, i do listen but i was too scared to act out and not strong enough to admit it. I am TOTALLY FREAKING SORRY ;|

kinda cute

2010-07-15T14:40:00.008+08:00

So i met this shawty the otha day

I got her numba called her up like, what you doin?

She say, nothin'.

I say, what's good?

She say, not much.

I say, guess what..

She say, what's up?

I say, i think we should hook up

She say uhh...

I say, what?

She say, but..

I say, But? Why you stuck?

She say, fuck.

I say, who?
She say, not you.

I say, then who?

She say, you know.

I know what?

You know who.

I say, I do?

She say, you do.

I say, I do. But i really don't because it's you that i really want.

And we can do what you really want.

Girl we've grown And if he ain't going to treat you right,

Then i ain't going to treat you wrong,

That's my word.

And she has heard so many lies.

She don't know what's true or not.

I swear she's been through a lot.

But I put her car in park and never let her cry alone.

i listened to her heart beat because it plays my favorite song.

-Lil'Waine

I'm not a ghetto freak but more than a few proved to be good dance songs. I have to admit that some of the lyrics are crap shit like what in the world are you talking about? It's not totally bogus, there are a number of exceptions :)

p/s: if this happens in a real world, omigod get to the point pleaseee why are you draaaaggging the conversation with one linerss???! make use of the existence of sentences, phrases. argh.

But I just think,this particular part is kinda cute. kan? cute crappin. lol.

cheesy me.

Mario ft Lil Waine -Crying out for Me.

.....

2010-07-14T17:22:00.009+08:00

Dudeeeeeee,

I hate the fact that you're so awesome and kind

because it leaves me staring at this blank page, speechless

every time i'm about to write something about it.

with what am i suppose to begin with? your incredible hair? your caring ways?

your thoughtful thoughts? the way you make me laugh?

.....................................................................................................

gaaaaah, i'm lost for words.

Nonetheless, thanks for the endless days/nights of good company and many more to come :P I simply love that you're a really nonchalant, laid back and often supportive person to be with.

Most of all, you unpretentiously manage to make do with these flaws of mine :)

However, please do tell my wrong doings if I've blindly oversee.

Muchas Graciass.

things to do for lazy me

2010-07-14T16:28:00.008+08:00

changeable to do list :

Bake those cookies that has been chilling in the fridge for four hours. I hope to God that it would turn out scrumptious and prove to certain people that yes, i can bake!
Watch New Moon, and then watch Eclipse. Including cool upcoming movies.
Cut my beloved car some slack and go repaint, it needs a makeover instead of looking like something out of a junk yard.
My wardrobe needs some serious MAJOR organisation. If it continues to pile up, i might find reptiles infesting in it as we speak. Ew.
Study? because i feel dumber day by day. I'm spoiled, rotten during the holidays. My brain needs a getaway from hours of pointless internet surfing and bad television.
Go out with Adlyn and the rest of the bunch (for burger oblong and cendols, yum)
Get a good Korean drama fix, namely Beautiful etc obtainable from abang's external hard disk.
Letak ubat Fifi & eat more veggies.
Actually go on a holiday trip & stop eating crappy food.
Be a good daughter, friend and girlfriend - less whiny, more supportive.
To be thankful everyday for all the things that i'm blessed with.
Appreciate more.
Start cracking my head for good gifts and saveeeeee money for future retreats.

Seriously, some could even take a lifetime to achieve. lol. toodleluu.

the great escape

2010-07-07T19:51:00.013+08:00

where can you find a place that you could drown yourself into heaps of joy, selfishly losing yourself, without thinking of anything else? Thus, to feel content, full of life and truly make the most out of that particular moment of time, from dusk till dawn. As if you've strayed from the world and your concentrating on your own right now. Nothing is in your way and deep down inside you hope that your're doing the right thing, with the right people.

And, it's free of charge.

plenty of people, is it here?

or here? *wink*

okay, here is forgivable :))

some people are confused by this, thus they often make the wrong choices. It depends whether you want an easy way out, or be a realist. In my opinion, the satisfaction that one gets from the first picture is just temporary happiness and it doesn't normally ends nicely - you'll have a blast but will probably end up either exhausted, broke, drunk or having to wonder the next morning who's that human being next to you?

Once the damage has been done (or when its too late), only then people will find guidance and comfort in the second picture.

Whatever it is, obviously, i'm comfortable in the third. he he.

Nak shopping wehhhh. *cries*

Bali

2010-07-07T17:13:00.006+08:00

Uluwatu, Bali.

simpan duit. simpan duit. simpan duit. simpan duit. makan pasir janji dapat pergi sini. please.

Kuta Beach, Bali. kepala hotak die *heart attack, mati*

Im not sure the name of the place but its stunning

St Regis Resort, so cosy *berangan*

Dreamland, Bali. *paradise*

Bali has loads to offer as a holiday spot - gorgeous scenery, fascinating culture, wonderful beaches, surf, swim and sun, long, pale, golden sandy beaches, resort style hotels, boutiques, water sports, brilliant blue sea, hawkers, handicrafts, masseuse, local seafood cuisines and plenty of clubs and bars that lurks behind the nodding palms that fringe the beaches.

This place will miraculously cast all your troubles away. Its eclectic and brash, sometimes noisy and crowded, but always lively and fun. It combines the best beach life on a classic paradise island with a happening night scene. cewah ckp macam dah pergi je, soon! InsyaAllah. definitely on my list :)

tratatravel

2010-07-07T15:58:00.009+08:00

In love. it's just so simple and convenient. chandeliers = sexy.

best best best

ever feel lifeless, bored out of your head? well, guess what i do. i imagined summer holidays are suppose to be full of fun and thrilling activities with roller coasters, beaches, road trips, movies (couple of times, checked), endless supply of crappy food (checked), lots and lots of laughter until you feel that tingling of guilt for having too much fun. However, mine basically starts, continues and ends in the same room, doing the same lame-o things. wheres the fun in that women?! Nevertheless, my weekends are great! :) Well, as soon as my bff safely lands in Malaysia imma drag that petite ass-less frame of hers all over the places that i've been dying to go to. It doesn't matter if you're bored, fat or tanned - u owe me! Okay, not really places to die for but the places that i've been wanting to go to but haven't found anyone who is available for them yet. Everyone is either too far, or too busy. And im just too God damn free.

Hearsay, isn't it nice to spend some time, out of the norm and go travelling (with irresistable fares and unbelievable shopping! *in denial syok sendiri*) ? That's basically the main point of this post. For now, i've finished 3-4 books, bb-ed almost everyone everyday, met with a bunch of friends who is just so busy with work etc (yes, most of my friends are working ppl), helped in organizing my brother's wedding, experienced some facts of life (that u can't please everyone), finished all my tv shows to its newest release, watched Shrek, A-team & Karate Kid, went to Mid-Valley, KLCC, Ikea, Sunway Pyramid, Pavillion, Curve, & KL-trippin. Well, my holiday isn't that bad after all ey? Its not like euro-trip or anything but it's still lovely. Spent my time with loved ones, got wasted with alc....kidding, entertainment and perkara-perkara tak berfaedah.

Thus, credits to Rockstar for being there albeit most of the time, accompanying this royal whin-er for dinners/movies/malls. muchas gracias. lovolovolovo.

Food for thought

2010-07-02T19:20:00.014+08:00

kak intan, Daus

I’m proud to brag that I am no longer THAT naive about outside-full of poisonous-MSG food that people are buzzing around on how delish it is although it is full of poisonous MSG, the ambiance was lively, the incredible view bla bla bla, because of you oh so amazing guy who appreciates food more than thy lungs times a millionth. I have never been bothered on trying out new places to eat, as my preference of places will always be narrowed down to Sakae Sushi - every time I go out with my friends. It’s affordable, and it is Japanese, what more can I say? That place never fails to satisfy this palette of mine. PLUS, I have never ever seen anyone with an appetite like his! makan macam naga. I’m afraid fasting month is just around the corner and I think he might just be crawling everywhere, lifeless without food.

Countless of places that offers good food, not so nice food with superb view, cheap stuff but is so worth itttt makes me want to lick the plates off clean yummmmay :D has been introduced to me in various delicious forms that gives the stomach that deep satisfaction nothing else could. It could also be put as an educational trip about food in all its glory, since I lack that adventurous itch to try out new joints until he showed up and I normally eat at home. I'm not being stingy, its called savings.

However, that’s just silly, of course I counted out the new places that I’ve tried and dined in, and overall I have visited to a total of 28 new tasty eateries. That is in a course of 3 months time, but what surprises me is that his work and busyness doesn’t get in between. We would always manage our time right to squeeze in some quality time to spend with each other. It takes a lot of will and power to get up and go entertain (and drive) your loved ones after a long day of work. In which the only thing that you want to do at the end of the day, is to just rest. And I mean, persistently. Thank you so very the much :) The sacrifices that you’ve made has not been taken lightly as it would be repaid and appreciated with much love, care and maybe I’ll consider to return the favor and splurge you when I’ve started receiving pay checks. :)

BUT im not quite sure where and when. hihihi.

having a really great time, happy and round. howwa you doin? :D

last minute shoe, where are you?

2010-07-02T18:48:00.005+08:00

im suppose to be a bridesmaid tomorrow for my brother's wedding,

and yet, one is going to be the first barefoot bridesmaid that one has ever encountered with,

thus, the missing shoe/heels/pumps.

I'd settle for Bata or Vincci or Nose by now, it doesn't matter as long as my dignity is still in tact while walking down that aisle.

it's less than 24hours away and yet time doesn't even stop at this very depressing moment?

a bridesmaid, with nothing to cover her feet while walking down the aisle,

making a fool out of herself,

that might be the most embarrassing moment that it would be a hit on Utube.

worse case scenario, i might wear a slipper? it still covers my feet and supports the sole with much comfort without any contingencies of me having back aches,

or even, i might just wear any shoe that i already have right now?

the purpose is to look good right, but now that's not even relevant. this is a call for desperation.

everyone is too busy occupying time for the grand hall, the flowers, the seatings, the lights, the camera, but doesn't it occur to them that people want to be in awe at the sight of both the bride and the groom strolling down that velvet carpet,

not in shocked with mouths wide open thinking that,

'kesiannya budak nih, takde duit nak belikan kasut ke..meh makcik sedekah sepasang nak?'.

taking this as a note to self, every girl must atleast have a white/black pumps that matches every kind of outfit. in case of an emergency, voila they would save the day. And secondly, my god mother told my mother, to tell us, that in circumstances that if we ever decided to get married, why not elope in Thailand or somewhere, saves a hell lot of money + time + creative ideas. Thanks for the heads up!

what i love about today

2010-06-23T16:36:00.004+08:00

today i wake up and im healthy without any symptoms of dying
today i have someone who loves me, God bless you :)
today i have the opportunity to love someone
today i still have a wonderful family to care for *err correction, who takes care of me
today i had a good meal
today i have clean air to breathe
today im still under the supervision of the best mother in the www

who provides shelter, love & care.

yes, everyday is special. I need to remind myself this more often since i tend to forget :)

crappy day

2010-06-17T13:26:00.011+08:00

this lame joke made me laugh for a second today, maybe because how lame it would sound if someone actually told me this,

A piece of string walks into a bar...and orders a drink. The bartender says "I can't serve you, you are a piece of string!" So the string goes outside, ties himself in a knot, and rubs his head on the cement. He goes back into the bar and orders a drink. The bartender says "aren't you the same string that was in here a minute ago?" The string says, "no, I'm a frayed knot!" (afraid not)

Only because i'm human, its natural to feel tired/depressed when your day is starting out not so hot and it gets worse because of how it gives an impact on that entire day itself?!!? In which, some things are just out of our control, or is it not? i am one who sleeps like a baby when everyone is still up on facebook/internet/infront of the tv/on the phone in the middle of the night, because normally i'll pass out at 11pm. However yesterday, I was the one in front of the tv until 8.40 in the morning watching football because something is bothering me everytime im about to close my eyes. Gahh. I chickened out and stayed awake the whole entire night.

I woke up (i was awake) the next day (today) in a sour mood, grumbling to my friend about my desire to NOT have this day, and i cant sleep during the day because im not used to it. Then, as i am super bummed, i made him worry that he had done something wrong when i have no intentions on making him feel that way because he is the sweetest. Adding to the plate is the fact that i had just repaired my blackberry and it wasn't cheap, there was a problem with my track ball and it was testing my patience. It kept on going up when i wanted to scroll down, and that is just so annoying....

So, bb-ing or sms-ing was a bit troublesome and i thought by upgrading the OS things would get better, but nah it persists. I was blinded by the persuasion of PopMyBerry on how my BB would be as cool as Bold 2. It did though :)) So, now i have to consider on changing my trackball, and i might not in the meantime due to insufficient funds.

Besides, i spent too much this month. For the fact that sleep is important to me, and my blackberry might be the few things i cannot live without - when both of these things goes wrong, it is not a good start of a day. So my eyes are sore, im broke, and its hard not to bb without cursing at it.

However, im accepting my crappy feeling day (i have yet to endure the stresses of the working world, omg) and i'm going to see a friend who has the ability to randomly make my crappyness disappear for awhile. That is not even a word, i made it up. I'll try to keep my crap to myself. and i love MF so much, because you always make me :) even when im mooody or even when im not, i'll still :D when im witchaaahh. *wink* that includes u adlyn. lol.

a friend

2010-06-15T14:33:00.005+08:00

swensens :) (:

if you're a friend,

you'll understand.

my happiness is yours as well.

you'll tell my faults, but in private.

doesn't matter how long we've been apart, you are still there.

you would know something is wrong, even when i have the biggest smile on my face.

we would grow together, supporting each other.

you ask me how i am, and can't wait to hear the answer.

you're glad of my achievements and i'll be psych about yours.

time doesn't get in between.

no matter where we go, we take a little bit of each other everywhere.

you're there to listen, you're there to talk.

you multiply the joys of life.

i can call u up at 4am in the morning, and you'll answer.

you withstand all my bullshit, because you know me and love me anyway.

*with no sexual intentions what-so-ever*

you are my muse, through good times and bad, with smiles and tears.

:)

2010-06-14T17:21:00.003+08:00

at this very moment, i wish i could feel this way forever. hwappppy.

Yeay me!

and dude, i miss you?
eurotripping without me? *sobs*

now u're ruining my moment.

blergh.

roses are red

2010-04-18T09:19:00.005+08:00

in the looks of where im standing right now, all i can say is that i feel content, theres an equal amount of happiness, love, respect, boredom, worry, lost and naive inside of me that can simply be put as a feeling of, just nice. Its not perfect, its not overwhelming but i feel as if im right at the place where i feel like i belong to; which is as corny as it sounds, its with you. When you're around, i am the genuine side of me that no one could see as clearly as u do, most of the time. You make me happy. When im with you, every smirk, every spill, every smile that i make, u seem to understand deeper than what the surface shows, and thats why my friend i think u rock. U make it seem effortless. Although, u cant seem to put into words of how this could be happening, but from time to time i witness these little things that you do, which in sum reflects you. and the YOU that i know now, is full of awesomeness, kindness and im not just saying this because im a close friend of yours but im saying this as another human being. Anyone, even a blind person would love you please :) The little things matters to me, and when u do it, it feels nice, err no, it feels AWESOME. :P

Im not saying that you're perfect because lets face it no one is perfect, im the perfect example of that just look at how i eat? like a 5 year old kid, dont u think? But, you seem to stay calm when im a mess, you dont turn mad when i pick front seats for a movie, or when i spill milo ice all over the table or when i ask too much until ure annoyed. deal with it :P

Thanks dude, you're a big part of my life and i appreciate you for who you are. it might not feel like this in the future, things could take a turn anytime soon let it be for the good or bad but at this moment in time, im enjoying every single day spent witcha (:

pffffft. hugs & kisses.

for you

2010-04-14T16:34:00.003+08:00

yes you, for being you. lol

you are, beyond words nice & awesome & sweet.

'nuff said.

i love you for who you are.

period.

u deserve everything that u want.

no kidding.

you rock my world.

said and done.

appreciate it, thank you :)

hello

2010-04-14T15:41:00.003+08:00

its May already, and i am still alive. Alhamdulillah. Life has been so nice these past few weeks, i dont even know how or where to begin with, well it began at the tennis court really and the wonders of blackberry lead me to a really nice feeling/person. tee hee.

Someone asked me, what do girls want? Even if they (guys) have poured their hearts, love, dedication, trust, and loads more towards the relationship, why do they ended up being the ones hurt/heart broken? when that is clearly the opposite of what they really deserve in return which is, loyalty for once. I've been shocked by a news from a very close person that he is willing to let go after he was faced with ..... by his long time girlfriend, something that he doesnt expect to get after what he had done for her. The same thing, happened to a friend of mine - in which believe me is a very nice person who would do just about anything he could to make her happy - by his will. and then, she cheats. life sometimes can be unfair, no?

in my opinion, i think everyone makes mistakes and the only thing that we have to understand before doing anything is that, in every decision theres options and consequences. If u chose to cheat, lie, run away, u have to bear with what is going to happen next and do not expect that u could get away with it, because u wont as the saying goes, the truth prevails. So, good guys are a keeper, they are nice, sweet, adorable, sarcastic, a million times better than a player but still, some girls can be so ungrateful with what they have that they overlook all of those kindness, and take the option to test the waters with other guys because they know good guys would always catch them when they fall. Im not saying that its this simple, because i've never experienced it, but why waste a diamond for a pearl that u can just picked from the sea? haha

there's no difinite answer as to why this happens, but i think girls often take advantage on good guys because they know they can, and if they did they could get away with it. Which is stupid.

Love, good guys, doesnt come easily these days and once you've found one that is truly a keeper, think wisely on the options u make and the consequences u have to bear later. its like, hmm even when you try to glue back a broken mirror, you nampak jugak the cracks on your reflection.

lets say that i've found one, ill treasure it.

i hope. :)

xoxoxoxo

little things matter to us

2010-02-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

due to the upcoming events, thy did not weep but was just, touched by this post copied & pasted from a friend's blog.

great scene of modern grace on '30 Rock' the other day:

Liz and Jack went out to dinner at a very chic restaurant. As they sat down at the table, Jack immediately moved the candle from the center of the setting to the side of the table. Liz looked at him kinda funny, not understanding why he did that but, not really caring either. Later, however, when Liz reached across the table to steal some of Jack's food (as she always does), she realized he moved the candle so her sleeve wouldn't catch fire when she reached across the table. Jack's manner and grace were so attuned to her as a friend, that he knew her moves before she did. That tiny gesture ended up becoming the pivotal moment of the episode and changed the course of their business relationship.

I'm telling you guys again, women notice the small stuff. They notice the gentleness/gentlemenliness more than if you use the right fork at dinner. I'm a very lucky man, Garance notices every little kindness I offer her, she doesn't miss a thing. Knowing that makes it so much more rewarding to do even more little things for her. I'll be honest, my biggest obsession in life right now is not better shoes, more suits or a bigger career but, to simply be a more graceful man for my graceful woman.

So women, in the spirit of grace, manner and Valentine's Day, take a moment and share with us men some of the little kindnesses that your man has done for you that made your heart flutter. Us men might learn something and you might gain an even more graceful man, a gentleman.

Editor's Note: For my gay readers, I can only write this as I know it, a man loving a woman. Don't let this keep you from joining the conversation. If you have tiny acts of kindness from a boyfriend to a boyfriend, or girlfriend to a girlfriend, please share with us.

Grace is Grace.

It doesn't matter who you're lovin', it's how you're lovin'!

addiction

2010-01-27T08:48:00.003+08:00

morning!

i had a wonderful day yesterday (:

i have a thing for earrings.

i have the tendency of spending when im suppose to be saving.

especially on bargains. yes you know how it feels.

a voice comes out from your deepest guts haunting u to BUY.

buy ira, there wont be anything like this anymore. buy buy buy.

i have to, have to, start writing something for my Tax assignment. sigh

changed my alarm ringtone because the old one makes me want to sleep more.

im jealous of Miranda Kerr.

i want body shop's mascara.

and i love Richard Templer's book, The Rules of Life.

"....Lets take a scenario you go out to buy a new car/house/suit/computer/whatever turns you on. you have the money (no, i have no idea where you get it from, this is just an example) and you buy whatever it is and it makes you feel incredible/happy/excited/fantastic. Now imagine whoever it was who built/made/created whatever it is you bought. When they made it, where did they fit that feeling in? i think you might have brought that feeling with you.

Now imagine you fall in love. It is again, incredible. You feel fantastic, happy, excited. You go meet your new love and when you see them, that feeling spills out in all directions. You feel amazing because you are with them and they are generating that feeling. right? wrong. again, you brought it with you. you may look to them to trigger it but even if they go to the other end of the planet, you'll still have that feeling and they're nowhere near you.

but no amount of falling in love, buying new stuff or getting sacked is going to keep that feeling going for longer than it takes for us to get over it. People get addicted to buying new stuff or falling in love or whatever because they just love that feeling without realizing that they already have it. They have to keep having their 'fix' because they think it's the only way to get that feeling going. The secret is knowing how to trigger it without anyone else or anything else being involved. No, i dont know. Yo have to find that one for yourself. clue : its the one place you'd never think of looking, yep. right inside you"

reading this, what if you are miserable, poor, with no money and no family. how do you look inside you for happiness? i can only say that God is also a source that brings immense joy even just by praying because deep down you know that God listens, better than anything else in the universe.

know where your true happiness comes from.

love

2010-01-27T08:39:00.001+08:00

tangga - usai disini

whisper to me like this (excluding the lyrics) and ill melt like a butter :)

Di dalam kesunyian
Kau dan aku terdiam
Bersiap untuk hadapi kenyataan
Bahwa jalan terbaik, bagi sebuah
Hubungan tanpa ikrar adalah berpisah

Usai segalanya di sini
Semua tak mungkin lagi ku beri
Karna kau bukan cinta yang sungguh
Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta

Sempat ego bicara
Pada pendirian kita
Mencoba tuk memaksakan
Dan acuhkan logika
Bahwa meskipun cinta tak harus memiliki
Namun jalina cinta tetap perlu janji

Usai segalanya di sini
Semua tak mungkin lagi ku beri
Karna kau bukan cinta yang sungguh
Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta

Bersiap untuk hadapi kenyataan
Bahwa jalan terbaik bagi sebuah
Hubungan tanpa ikrar adalah berpisah
Karna jalinan cinta tetap perlu janji

Usai sampai di sini
Tak mungkin lagi ku beri .. padamu..
Oohh.. Cintaku yang ternyata semu

Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta

during lunch break

2009-12-17T19:00:00.002+08:00

colourful

I think about u all the time, Lol. But life without u seems....kinda weird? I realised how much close we were before that it made me feel attached to yah! i know, jiwang betul. ignore this.

by the way, I played pool today!! Or isit snooker? Mhahah I dont even know how to differentiate between the two, as u see im not an expert in these ‘cool things’ kids do these days. Im old. But it was sofa king awesome. Loves it. Shimal thought me how to hold the stick for the first time, I was like holding it the wrong way. Jakun gile di situ, kene paksa main punya pasal. Everyone was looking at me one kind, but I just kept my cool and ignore them.

Then his friend was there too and boy was he good! EEhad I think? Or something like that, Im not so sure what’s his name..because the place was noisy and I just angguk2 when we were introduced. I have impaired hearings. So the fact that i was a newbie..i moved the ball a bit, here and there to make it easier for me to hit it and masukkan dalam lubang tu! Or else I think tahun depan pun game tu tak habis. Nampak je senang ok tp cuba korang main. I almost poke someone’s but, with my stick, it was embarrassing. it is damn long. Is it suppose to be that way? for people with giant hands is it?

Well, EEhad is slightly taller than me so he gave me a boost of confidence to keep on practicing until I got it right. Plus, i had my support system, Ram and Put, without them i would have definitely passed the stick to someone else. ceh poyo. It was fun. Maybe I can buy the balls first, then the stick..then the table..and play it at home. Or just play online. someone is addicted. Lol

hahah

2009-12-16T16:14:00.003+08:00

hahahah bumped into this article. Ten reasons she' wrong for you.

So here is this Dude Mom's list of "wrong girl" warning signs for all my sons, especially the ones I haven't met, to help them find the right ones. Grandparents can thank me later.

1. She doesn't like your mother? She's history. Think about it... the girl says she loves you. Your mama birthed and raised you. That girl should kiss the ground your mother walks on, to thank her for creating such a wonderful man.

2. Is she scared of or intimidated by your mother? Tell her to grow a spine lickety-split, or put her out with next week's trash. Women who can't look your mother in the eyes are insecure women, and you'll spend a lifetime trying to fix them, to no avail.

3. Does your gal complain about the kind of car you drive? Dump her. Dude, it's your car. If she wants a fancy car, tell her to buy her own. You're saving your money for a house for your future family. The right girl will appreciate that.

4. Does your dream girl spend more than you do on jeans and shoes? She needs to go. A man's jeans and shoes are the first thing other men look at when they meet. It's a manly-man thing. They matter. Clothes on a woman don't matter. (Clothes off a woman matter.)

5. Does she tell you she loves you just the way you are, and then try to change your hair, your clothes, your speech, your habits and your man cave? Run, man, run! She WILL love you, when you are just the way she wants you to be. And that ain't you, dude, so get outta there pronto, tonto!

6. Does she get jealous easily? She will after a month, a year and a marriage certificate. Secure women rock. Insecure women just get more insecure with age. No amount of Botox will help. If they don't feel beautiful, they won't be. Women must believe it, to be it. Hasta!

7. Does she dig guy sports? Will she sit down and watch them with you, without demanding you pay attention to her? If it's a no, she's a no. Personally, women who like football are the greatest. But I was raised on real Madden football: I witnessed John's record-breaking legacy with the then-great Oakland Raiders. The right woman will love your sports, too, or at least put up with them without whining.

8. How does she treat bus boys, waitresses and barristas? If she's rude, talks down to them or treats them as lowly, she will treat you that way someday, when you don't live up to her expectations. God and the Constitution said we are all equal. Superiority is a warning sign of more trouble later, when she turns it on you. Exit now, Stage Left.

9. Does she need expensive gifts, fancy clothes or lots of "stuff" to be happy or feel loved? She's riding your money train, hon, and she'll ride some else's when yours dries up. If she buys her own bling, but to excess? If the UPS man is at her front door more than you are, the two of you will never own your own door.

10. When you get sick, get in trouble, or have a crisis, who ya gonna call? Can she step in and take the reins? Men are strong and capable, yes, but life happens. Finding a woman who can take over when you've skinned your knees is priceless. The right girl will be as capable as you are, in all the ways that matter, when you need her to.

Just like your mama was.

morning

2009-12-16T08:26:00.006+08:00

toilet

i woke up this morning and my stomach was humming a symphony that sounds like the effect from the bbq chicken pau I had for lunch yesterday. ONLY THAT ONE PIECE. Damn yuh assignments! Now I have to suffer from gastric pain and skip my 8am law tutorial ;)) hee-hee.

Last Friday Taylor’s was having an open day at the newly state-of-the-art (so called) campus, I went and explored the place with Put Put and Vivienne. Vivienne, please do not drive if you had been clubbing the night before, I’ve had enough of traumatic accidents. First of all, let me tell you how tired I was afterwards, omigod! How considered of them to place our school’s (business school) tutorial classes at the far end, and the lecture halls-multipurpose hall at the other far end. Imagine if numerous tutorials and lectures we held on the same day, so we would have to walk back and forth, back and forth, back and forth...until our legs breaks apart. Plus, the weather was not to die for but we can die in it. It was hot and humid. May need to buy my own sun block with spf 60 in S’pore later. and, they need to plant more trees. pls.

Therefore, despite the ignorance of us, occupying a map..in which we were laughed by this cute tour guide because we were looking at it upside down. Putput cover-line malu by saying that, she purposely did that because we were going the other way round? Wtf. We toured the campus from g-floor to level 4...it has 9 floors but the upper-part was still under construction. I wonder why Miss Vinitha (progg. Director) wants us to move this early since the building doesn’t even have tiles yet. Some of the lecture halls were ready but some are still dusty and undone. AND FYI, DESIGN STUDENTS will be getting 4 LABS FULL OF MAC-APPLE COMPUTERS. Damn. I’ll definitely sneak in one day and steal one.

However, the upside was that the food was superbbb. We tried all of it (because it was freee :D).We had lamb, fish truffle, choc cake, mocktails, satay and some Mexican food. All of it was catered and cooked by Taylor’s school of hospitality students, delish! The chefs were hot too. These are some of the pics we took (G floor pics only) before we got too carried away and forgot about taking more pics.

One of the pc lab - lakeside view. cewah. poyo.

house keeping 1

house keeping bathroom

housekeeping 2

outside parking lot

(notice the futsal & tennis courts at the hujung and our lake at the side, there were ppl kayaking)

Put took some more pics, but i was busy scratching myself. byk nyamuk. construction side biasa lah. mcm...

towards new

2009-10-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

first, it is about acceptance. if u ever change your mind, think back. bring ur thoughts way back to the times when things are sweeter.

then, let it go. it is not that hard when you're not holding anything back. a grudge, etc.

it is doable, have faith.

move on.

feel better!

generally.

nak!

2009-10-17T17:20:00.003+08:00

its so unfair when both of my brother's are using Iphone now, thus comes my inner jealousy of having a new one too! its a battle between these two, the grey one E71 is the latest version of E63 however, the keypads are a little bit smaller and it doesnt come in red. I've practiced a number of times using my mum's blackberry qwerty keypads and i love it! i cant wait to get my hands on one of these. texxting will get so much better! daddy, birthday, please? :D

rolling on the bed

2009-10-15T10:36:00.002+08:00

im determined to undermine all the worries that i have now, and live with it. today is the last attempt to correct my schedules align with my friend's as how it has been like before. I have made friends, and i love my friends, and now awkward as it is i have to enter a week's classes to a room of aliens. Macy, Wen Yi has been terribly nice, including Ahmed who accompanied me through the most boring classes that i wish i was asleep. I dont mind making friends, but it is still not the same without them - the ones i grew bitchy and obnoxious with. Furthermore, im grouped with another intake in which i know no one, and even though i try to know them it still needs effort and time to get to THAT stage where u fart, i fart, i dont care. Its just so demotivating? Im late for class, xoxo.

back to school!

2009-09-28T21:23:00.005+08:00

hye. omigod for so long i've been staring at this blank post and that's the only word i could come up with, hye. it has been so long since i actually studied something (5months to be exact) therefore, there is some lack thereof of fresh ideas in my little pesky brain. i wish i have something really intelligent and smart to say but at the moment i really dont have any. It’s getting quite old whining all the time you know in your head about all the things that could go wrong when u should do something else. Im getting a bit paranoid about getting back out there, into the fields of educated, smart ppl who perpetually made me into this state? But, everything starts somewhere so lets see how my first lecture goes, Market Analysis for Private Investors. Happy days.

So, since its still the joyous month of eid mubarak, im going to share some of my memories. The first day, was very conventional but very delayed. The clock stopped in our presence. As usual for these past two years, in the absence of my dada there is only one resort for every raya, negeri 9. The first day itself, i woke up at 10am or so, and seriously duit raya was the first thing in mind. Food, was second. Our family was running around the house cleaning and preparing for raya on the day itself. In slow motion, everyone was tired god knows what we did the night before.. ha! My mother just came back from Genève so she was actually the one who interrupts the day and made it looooong and slooooooooow. Its more of a laid back raya.

Thus, we managed to arrive at nenek’s house by 4++pm. This year has to be the most least number of houses that we went to (boleh kira dgn jari kot) due to my mother’s jet-lag recovery. We were damn lazy to pick our melon size asses to visit cousins that we stayed at our nenek’s house and let them visit us. Ha! Genius ke tak. Plus, I got to collect ang pau’s in just one place. Love it. On a brighter note, lesser cuisines to baham, lesser consumption of guilt. Everyday I get to see relatives from distant areas and it was very tiring to update and get feedbacks on every one’s life. The normal conversation usually starts like, ‘ehhh dah besar dah! Lama x jumpa. Belajar lagi ke skrg?’ bla bla till the ultimate question in which I hate them for it ‘dah ada boyfriend dah?’ bla bla bla. Everyone was there, so we had our famous barbecue like really old school barbecue with sabut kelapa, woods, situated near a hutan.. Im terrible at cooking, but I am superb at helping. Tolong makan that is. Hahah.

Really, everything that I consumed has been correlating into my thighs, tummy and even chest. I can feel that my b**bs are expanding with the dignity of rendang kawah Aunty Mon. Seriously, if I were any man, I would want to marry her because she is the best cook in the universe. The kitchen is literally her favourite place, I asked! (and the only place I often see her at) hence, where all the delicious magic happens. Confirm tambah!

I think that should be enough for raya posting because it would take ages to stop. Oh and to name a few of the mercun’s that my brother conveniently had his friend shipped them in from Thailand was all the big guns ; mercun merdeka, mercun lemang, mercun crazy robot, thunder king etc. On a brighter note, Im excited that im going back to college to remind myself that I am doing something with my life. Plus, I miss my friends mucho. So happy raya everybody and maaf zahir batin -

haih

2009-09-17T17:09:00.002+08:00

Dear Nur Zahirah,

Apologies for the delay in replying to you.

I can advise that a registration tab should now be visible in your MYUWE pages.

Kind Regards

Helen Dewar

Collaborative Programmes Administrator

no, it is still not there, i cant seem to find it anywhere in myUWE page. unless im blind forgodssake.

bored

2009-09-16T22:48:00.005+08:00

pernah terfikir tak what would it cost if u could print the internet?

forward:: now u know.

caught up in your love with lyrics

2009-09-13T21:25:00.001+08:00

which one is pon, which one is zi? so cute!

to do list : a week before raya

2009-09-13T20:41:00.002+08:00

1. find kasut raya for my baju kurung, going sopping

2. register for 2nd year of degree or else i might not be listed

3. download greek...etc

4. spend last few moments with dude cos wont see her for 3 BLOODY YEARS

5. bring abang's stuff to sjmc

6. eat lots of laksam because ramadhan's almost ovah

me

2009-09-13T20:23:00.005+08:00

this is inspired from a random blog i came across and she wrote, 'sometimes i ponder upon the fact as to why i put myself in such position to tolerate such crap' and from there it just got me thinking, what does life means? from where im standing right now all this while it just has been a few steps forward but everything still seems like a blur to me. i dont have a freaking clue to the answer my elementary teacher asked me before 'dah besar nak jadi ape?' im very clumsy, silly, FORGETFUL yes yes, and yet im taking the path where precise, accurate, facts on numbers and decisions are taken really2 seriously. it really doesnt makes sense and i dont really care whether u have a rotten childhood, chaotic lifestyle or twisted relationships because i love it! dont u think a clear blue sky can sometimes be bohring? u need the rain, and thunder or else there's nothing to talk about but dull-ness. have u ever wonder have u been making the right choices coming this far.

worse poster

2009-09-13T19:57:00.003+08:00

this. someone should be fired for this. above is the teaser poster for the new upcoming action movie, The Takers. The heads, for starters seemed to be photoshopped and why didnt they mess with chris brown's face? instead of hottie Paul Wallie. It looks like they were cut and pasted from a totally different picture. visual pollution. The film opens in the middle of Feb next year, that centers on a group of criminals trying to pull of their last bank roberry before retiring. welcome back, PW!

goshh

2009-09-11T20:23:00.003+08:00

this is NOT GOOD.

so the ever so long long loooong holiday is ending,

in less than a month life wouldnt be the same again.

much better! much more productive things to do

but, i have to register since i pass my year one, yeay!

thank you god i promise i'll TRY to be a better person in the future :D

no more rongak solats here and there.

prior to do everything online thing,

im having a problem. i cant register to myUWE

if i dont register as soon as poss,

i might NOT be listed as a student there and theres a risk

that i will be withdrawn from the programme

in which, i DO NOT want it to happen

mara has been kind enough to fund the fees, thank you god, again.

alhamdulillah.

so, have to call taylor's tomorrow to ask them

on my current worrying situation

plus, i want to be in the same class as my classmates, miss them muchoooo

jennifer hudson - spotlight

2009-09-10T11:34:00.002+08:00

nice songg

dude

2009-09-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

quicky :

so you're going to uk.

its been 7years aint it?

doesnt feel like it, still counting.

ill text, mail, call u, or haunt u.. u cant run away.

you're no longer held hostage of stupid laws..

god, i envy u.

doesnt matter how many times the sun rises,

i am still gonna miss ya!

i may see u next year. suprise2. mayjah :P

tc & enjoy.

i want postcards.

merci

2009-09-03T17:17:00.009+08:00

"i want u to give me a gift just because it's monday" its thursday, but that's not the point. It really is the thought, that counts.

i wish to tell all the unrathling feelings that i had, on a piece of paper. i havent been honest about what's been bothering me lately. So, being an earthling of such weakness on verbally assaulting ppl or negative confrontations - its less hurtful to say it on a piece of sheet. i love to write what can i say and im not doing harm to the environment [technology]. i invite myself to express everything that i felt, let it be good, nor bad..sweet or bitchy to calm myself down on a piece of letter at 3am this morning. Inspiration flowed like the effects of viagra. Therefore, the result of this confrontation was the opposite of what i expected. Thus, meet my two new friends! :)

forever some odd hours ago, i thought about how the reactions would be once its been read. Mad, frustrated, happy, touched. but i stumble in awe and gratitude when he admits that what i wrote was true and hearfelt. i gave a big sound of relief as i manage to let go of every unstatisfaction that i had and he wasnt mad about it. PHEW. But, dropped by to give me these..

geeeez, thankssssssssssssssssssss.

burrp

2009-09-02T20:12:00.005+08:00

im so full, eating buka puasa with the family makes a not so wholesome meal, really satisfying.

i hate it when i have to admit that you're right and im wrong

i hate it when u get mad and the world seems to revolve around u

i hate it when you're over protective of me like im a 9yr old

i hate it when things doesnt go as planned and there's no one to blame

i hate it when ure in trouble and all i can do is listen

i love it when u insists on doing the things i insists on not to when actually i want u too

i love it when u admit that you're wrong and u make quirky faces to make me laugh

i love it when u bring me roses

i love it when u cook

i love it when u drive

i love it when u call in the morning and before going to bed

i want u to give me a gift just because it's monday

i want u to remember things i dont expect u too

i want u to cool down when you're mad before you say harsh things

i love it when u think of me before work

i love it when u like cats too

i love it when u wash my car

i dont like it when you worry too much till its annoyying

MIA

2009-08-30T15:50:00.005+08:00

this is so FUCKED UP.

lakhnat to the person who stole MokMok from us. (cat of 7/8 years)

I hope you'll rote in hell for taking my cats away from me.

I know this is fate, but its so fucked up.

im so sad and pissed.

Im now left with 5 cats, lost 2, 1 died. (and all happened within 2months)

our suspicions goes to the pak guards who are always around.

it doesnt matter if they are starving to death sekalipun, you can just ask for money or food if ure in need of it desperately, ill try to lend a hand.

but dont steal other people's precious belongings..

Been trying to find him this past two days. Rips my heart out that he's gone :(

we all cling to the most precious things/objects in our life that gives us the will to gain strength or making progress. By simply moving on and being okay with the letting go of these things it can cause an amazing relief to ourselves. But im still mourning, it's too soon to say goodbye. sob.

lil food tripping

2009-08-27T10:49:00.004+08:00

happy fasting month to all muslims.

not so caloric treats that's really worth it :>

#1 Bazaar at Sbg - cheap and delicious. this place sells the very best Laksam i've ever tasted in S'ngor. The kuih muih's are surprisingly good too, and diabetic. It's so good i have to go there again!

#2 Bazaar at Taman Megah - not so cheap, but it's still finger licking g. this place serves the very best sup tulang ever. sumpah sedap weh & the ambience is so very G-A-Y (happy, lively)

#3 Bazaar Shah Alam - Its more 'upscale', kind of getting expensive but still offers good food. Im rolling all over the floor for its Bariyani Kambing & the best Nasi Kerabu. The meat is so tender. .mouth watering. but, the downside is there's - too much people. i warned you.

#4 Bazaar ss18 - The nasi kerabu isnt that great, but the popiah is okay. A lot of students, its more a feast for the eyes than the stomach. I would consider other places for the kuih's also. Its okay lah.

seek out delicious! & wear a mask.

lets get personal

2009-08-27T10:22:00.004+08:00

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	nur zahirah bt mohamad
Birthday:	28 november 1989
Birthplace:	KL
Current Location:	Shah Alam
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Brown/Balck
Height:	154
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	hmm
The Shoes You Wore Today:	none, still on me comfy bed
Your Weakness:	hugs and kisses :P
Your Fears:	losing something precious
Your Perfect Pizza:	lots and lots and lots of ch......tomatoes!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	for 2010, just be happy
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	wtf
Thoughts First Waking Up:	this morning, mohd hafizul dah bgn sahur belum?
Your Best Physical Feature:	errr, my feet?hahah
Your Bedtime:	11pm drop-dead asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:	when the family was still intact :P
Pepsi or Coke:	tah. pepsi kot
MacDonalds or Burger King:	tah. BK
Single or Group Dates:	both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolateeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Cappuccino or Coffee:	hate both. coffee makes dizzy
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	YES
Do you Sing:	sometimes
Do you Shower Daily:	yes....
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	yes, i missed it
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	hahah sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yes
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents:	maternally, yes.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	no
Do you play an Instrument:	yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	never
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	never
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes yes yes heheh
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yup
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no, mmm.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes!
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no, i have stage fright
In the past month have you been Dumped:	hahah no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	god, no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	not sure
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	hahah
How do you want to Die:	with dignity and honour
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	still searching
What country would you most like to Visit:	Nice, France
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	brown
Favourite Hair Color:	black
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	16+
Weight:	50+
Best Clothing Style:	hiphop haha jk. simple
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	plenty
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	quite a number...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

when your comfortable

2009-08-19T19:03:00.004+08:00

Its insane when you feel really comfortable with another human being that gets u and appreciates life similarly to the way u do until u can just not care about everything when they're around. Let's not deny it, people use most of their spare time judging others verbally or telling others around embracing 'its a free country' statement. Thus, your guard is always up around these bunch, carefully doing things trying to avoid nasty rumors or perceptions.

However, things feel natural when you're with someone you can stay silent long enough to sink into your own pool of thoughts although they're just next to you. Then, after awhile you pick up bits of the conversation back where you left off. You spend the whole day together and at the end of it, it feels as if its too early to say goodbye. Of course when we're not used to someone we try to distance ourselves from our roots. We'll perform with a little extra effort and behave all freshen up. But, with this person, its the opposite.

Or its like when u're just comfortable enough to just fart around each other. After a sec, you'll laugh with a blank expression of 'so what?'. I fart, you fart. It is a regular healthy thing to do and a hilarious part of life.

Hey, it just means we're comfortable being ourselves and relaxed enough to know the relationship is natural and normal. Nobody chooses farting as a hobby but it's part of what makes us human and its funny when we laugh afterwards. Stink bombs, machine gun blasts, whatever you're putting out there, that's fine, thats fine..that's perfectly fine.

Now im not advocating an environment of no limits. There's nothing wrong with keeping some personal space, either. After all, maybe you do your nose-picking in the car, or burp after a very satisfying meal - if so, that's cool. I dont mind.

All im saying is that there comes to a point when you're comfortable around each other too much. That shows either you're family, close friends or completely in love.

yeah

2009-08-19T17:54:00.004+08:00

10 awesome things i did today - lol.

#1 Waking up in the morning before the alarm clock and realising i've got some time left to sleep.. & knowing that im alive.

#2 listening to my favourite song over and over again *sara barailles - gravity* sing to it, remember the lyric and repeat it again and again until the beat get etched to the brain

#3 Slow down and deliberately parked the car at a curb at the sight of makcik jual kuih. Thank God im not in Iraq where food is available everywhere - road sides, train stations, etc

#4 Emptying my recycle bin in my computer. The World's Easiest Chore, u just cant help but to smile when all the unnecessary files, corrupted mp3's are all crumpled and trash away.

#5 Shoving handfulls of kerepek pisang into the mouth and spilling it everywhere. Get a move on, the show's getting better and it's time to stuff down big portions of salty sweet goodness in your mouth. perfect snack-of-the-day.

#6 Drinking hot chocolate while it's still hot hot. yes, it was worth it because it was a Geneve hot chocolate. I got to celebrate my day with a celebratory drink. ha!

#7 Paying the toll with the exact amount. You know these things are tedious, your in a hurry, they're in a rush... people's lining up behind you.. you just have to respect time.

#8 Giggling in a very funny way when someone close texts. Its like a brief escape from everything. wee.

#9 Looking at the clock right when the day's almost over. You know when you're so busy into the day with so many things to do - you just forget the clock even exists. It flies away and you dont even bother to check. And then, there it is..gosh its 6.30pm already. i must continue..tik tok

#10 Just smiling thinking of something really random. :D ngeh! you know the feeling, at first you were doing something and really focused then BOOM your mind starts to wander to your wildest imaginations and you're loving every moment of it.

Awesome!

hohoho

2009-08-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

he has been so nice lately, i wonder why.

cos he was late for some work driving really fast, and i was hungry.

'i dah lambat gile nih..' and i said i'm hungry. we were like so near already and he immediately turned the wheel and made a u turn... 'okay jom beli makan dulu'. arghhh. tak perlu please.

Wish List

2009-08-13T16:41:00.004+08:00

Its kind of a trend now making lists 'wishing' that - it would come true like what Oprah always say 'Its a miracle!' - thus, my birthday wish list.

1. A sling bag - been trying to search for one that's is not berambu2/hairy and in a perfect size. Grey, or Black. hah.

2. A Fossil time piece lol. Bribing Mr Toby to buy me one one. He smiles and ignores me though.

3. Cheeze Choc, Classic Cheese, or Oreo Cheese cake. delish.

4. A new wallet.

5. ...no idea.

Yeah, that's pretty much it. back to studying - which means scribbling and rubbing the answers until the paper's damn torn and i have to go get a new one and start all over again. fukc. - dont mess with numbers.

:0

2009-08-13T16:17:00.003+08:00

"There is no sight on earth more appealing than the sight of a woman making dinner for someone she loves." Thomas Wolfe sexy! *inspired* but not now, too much to do. hah.

Happy 20th Birthday to my lovely BFF of uno thos tres err seven years! Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and i think you've learned a lot from them. Wishing you happiness and many more birthdays to bring you delight. xoxo

gosh im dying, i have to study and a lot to prepare for this coming year of degree. I sat down this morning, eating kerepek pisang and snapped that next year its going to be a handfull. i have tax, law and investment. Sounds like i'll probably get my life back in 2 years. In the meantime, stress! i work best under pressure though, and last minutes!

Watch! Alice in the Wonderland.. 'It's a place, like no other.' J Depp is in it, enuff said.

Ditto on Genting

2009-08-10T15:25:00.005+08:00

life often meets you at defined moments where it just pisses you off and lets you down. Its hard to list the ways where life can be unpredictable because it is a journey from the moment we draw our first breath until the sec we gasp for our last. I guess, that's what makes life itself worth living, worth all the sweat, tears and blood.

If we knew what was going to happen, for example there's no need for ppl to scratch off the lottery knowing that it has high probability of winning. Thus, high anticipation and hope provokes my patience when things doesnt go as planned.

I am a minimalist, i like to keep it simple but meaningful.

I anticipated this trip to be the best of my holidays in which consist of the things i love to do ; shop and travel. What seems to be like the best thing to happen turns out to be nothing. It's a shame and im depressed. When im not in the mood, i just cant help it but become quite, subdued and x bother much.

bye bye Bandung and Jakarta. Its not UK, so i'll survive. lol.

Bububu

2009-08-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

more pics of bubu me love.

Bubu maharajalela on the bed (see backgroud, Cham)

thats him posing. halahala

candid. look at that furr, so fluffy.

been ages

2009-08-09T23:31:00.004+08:00

since my last post.

writer's block like seriously and pure lazyness.

gosh, a lot of things happened & i dont know where to begin with.

lets just start with the lost of two of my precious babies, bubu and lucy. *sobs*

Lucy, in the middle ; loving mother & house cat

King Bubu

First it was Lucy, my exception of life. Everytime i look and play with her its like a muse.

She's so clean, fragile and nice, irreplacable.

The cause of death was tragic for Lucy, i was crying in front of the neighbours..

and practically flood the house with tears. ugliest moment in my life.

Bubu went missing for a week and didnt come back home since.

feel so depressed. yes, life and death is in the hands of God.

peace and love for both of you! miss you so much.

Why? didnt i lavished them with tender loving care. ha.

Now im left with 6, sikit! OMG, have to face 6 more deaths - impossible.

p/s: buried Lucy in our backyard, my mother even planted bunga 'melor' on top of it.

vacation begins

2009-06-04T19:54:00.007+08:00

On the 31st of June, i went to port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan. yes, tis not a joke the picture above is what pd looks like now. I remembered the rumours of pd being the trash haven of Malaysians throwing rubbish and ‘jin’s but it surprised me how clear the water was. Well, it was ‘Toby’ s (bkn nama sebenar, nickname) 22nd birthday on the 1^st of June, there of making it the first birthday celebration he had yet to feel with a girl. So, since I love the sea so much and he wants to get away from kiasu dunia we decided to go to the nearest option, PD. Just a day trip, nothing more than that :P The drive took only an hour plus but the toll was pricy, RM13 in total if im not mistaken.

The blame is on us because we were like two naive people who believe every sign board which actually means the longest way with the most expensive toll. (balik bayar toll rm4 je sbenarnye! dah pandai ikut jln dlm)

So, we arrived at PD at 6pm on the 31^st evening, and rest for awhile. He was my driver, ahaks and I was at the side eating tuna sandwich. I’ve never been fishing before, and I never thought it as fun, because it actually is not. He loves fishing like I love cats even in the dark? So, since its his birthday, let the man enjoy his day at the shores of pd while I was chit chatting with him. (sakit bontot aku duduk atas batu besar2 tuh) I noticed that ‘fishermens’ haha are patient people seriously. They can sit there and wait for hours hoping for a catch, er do they make good husbands too? Huahua. Whatever, the fishes in pd jual mahal, we didn’t caught any. No luck.

Next, pegi makan! Haha we went to this seaview restaurant, which is directly overlooking the sea, but it was kinda dark and I dont have supervision. However, the food was nice. Toby ordered siakap steam, I ordered thai cili sotong both costs rm65, quite expensive for only two dishes? But it was actually worth it, I couldn’t stop licking the spoon hee wallet pun dah pnuh resit2 je. Huhu One thing that I really like about Toby is that he sticks to what he wants and he is quite matured. he has agood heart. Haha geli.

kay so after dinner, it was still early so we went to a fun fair. Spotted on the way to the fishing trip. God, dah lama tak pegi fun fair rasa sangat lah bising dan warna warni budak2 lari2. Tak tau lah kalau aku ada anak nnti mcm mana? It was too loud that we realised how old we were getting, that our hearing can’t take the noise anymore. But, he managed to win me a monopoly game and an upin teddy, before we dash off.

This is when the touchiest moment happened, midnight! Haha He looked at me, and I looked at him. Silence. Haha. ‘happy birthday!’ and a broad smile appeared on his face which I still remember until now. I gave him his present, and he gave me a white square box written ‘giordano italy’ on top of it. I was like, birthday siapa skrg? And he was like this is to show how much I .... u. So, we opened our presents and I liked it. It was a white gold I think necklace with a heart shaped pendant – i pun dapat hadiah jugak ke? He told me that he wants to put it on for me, so I let him and it is on me now. Uhuh. Balik tuh, stop tepi jalan beli rambutan jap.

Ps: camera die rosak, my camera is with me mama. And my phone habis battery. Hee. Pjg gle.

pok kele

2009-03-30T07:41:00.006+08:00

mhahaha so cant write much got ass due today a thousand words on a reflective report - on a subject that is mainly numbers. clueless what to write here. f lah. anyway, on the 28th of March, i went to the beach! well its not as blissful as bora-bora island or even Pulau Perhentian, but still the view of the ocean spread in front of your eyes, kind of takes the stresses away (: went there by my super-petrol-saver viva, he was the driver and also filled up the tank and i was the whiner at the side.lol. what got me by surprise was that, the fact that a guy really take your words into action. I told him how much i love the beach and how lovely would it be to go there and just stare. then jengjengjeng, port klang! hahahah the nearest, fastest, took only 30mins drive or less. Plus, the water was a mixture of teh and water, not that clear but i was flying. in cloud nine. hoahoa. there was even 'bangau's okay - no, i was not dreaming.

air pasang. was getting late in the evening, we were sitting at the stones

my hero. trying to light the arang which i am useless at. yes, he is not paul walker but he does have muscles. aha wtf.

excuse me, i marinated that chicken! two thumbs up :D my hero again, 'org prmpuan msk dkt dapur, lelaki msk dkt luar..' whatever, i grabbed that thong from him anyway.

the water, see there's a boat!

Then, we went fishing, where i was only the observer and he was the one patiently dreaming of a fish. didnt caught one. padan muka hahah. love it when a guy cares what u have to say, makes it come true - the effort made me melt. huahua. so, went back home kind of late, was shocked like babi hutan when he grabbed me in the waist, lift me up on the knees and shoulders and carry me. never pls.

Year 2

2009-03-13T14:16:00.010+08:00

so, theres the core subjects to take and two of them are prerequisites; corporate finance, financial accounting and management accounting. Dont be fooled, its not just about numbers, but more. If it wasnt for the good salary, i would be in Cutlinary Art school right now. Then theres three more additional subjects. Im taking Tax Planning, Market Analysis for Private Investors and ONE MORE. i need petunjuk? It seems that these are the only choices, despite how adventurous i want to be, i dont need a tumor in my head..so would it be;

'International Business Analysis' *maybe*

"A business analyst works as a liaison among stakeholders in order to elicit, analyze, communicate and validate requirements for changes to business processes, policies and information systems. The business analyst understands business problems and opportunities in the context of the requirements and recommends solutions that enable the organization to achieve its goals.", October 2008.

'Audit and Corporate Governance' *shrieks*

Audit plays an important role in State Street's governance structure, providing the Board of Directors and management with a mechanism to continuously monitor adherence to policies and procedures and assess the effectiveness of systems of internal control designed to protect the Corporation's clients, assets, revenues and market reputation. The team is organized to deliver audit services to the Company's major businesses, including Asset Management, Investment Servicing, and Global Services.

'Business Law' *considering..*

It is to serve the public, the profession and the company by furthering the development and improvement of business activities, educating members in business and related professional responsibilities, and helping members to serve their clients competently, efficiently and professionally.

OR Marketing OR International Business Analysis OR Human Resources Management. #$%*

walking after you

2009-03-11T08:01:00.011+08:00

Suka!

Walking After You

Tonight I'm tangled in my, blanket of clouds...

dreaming aloud.

Things just won't do without you, matter of fact.

I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back.

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more.

Weren't you adored?

I cannot be without you, matter of fact...

I'm on your back.

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact.

I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back.

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.

Sengal : baru bgn tido mmg sengal

2009-03-11T07:42:00.006+08:00

so much assignments, next week's holiday may not seem as a holiday.

it'll be a dead-vaca. things to meet a lot of dead lines. dead. seriously.

confessions (continued hehe) :

she's at lost for words, of everything that he does..he cheers her up. Not always, but often enough. When he says a, then its a. When he says its b, then its b. He loves it when she's mad, because it'll make him worry less. She cares, he sighs. Nevertheless, her feelings are still unidentified, unrecognised, not visible and unprecised, yet. (yes, very detailed. thank you) The guy is a sweety, still flawed..not like the flawless JT but still a gentlemen. Oh JT? how i wish?? tak cari lelaki lain dah! hehehe Her attention narrows to the fact that he used his own money to buy his car, and jengjengjeng took two kittens out of a very nasty mamak shop and make them his own. Ive seen them, kissed them too, as if im the mother. what the hell right? Yet, looks can be decieving, words can be coated, expressions can be hidden. lol. She is once again in a very hindustani-mood, lost for words. life sometimes, sucks.

Sengal

2009-03-06T08:49:00.002+08:00

Just a random expression of enthusiasm, dot dot dot.

He is a guy. A guy that appears so sweet in so many ways, not with materials but with heart. A big heart he has (yoda). He wakes up every morning to wake her up, and then go back to sleep. He thinks of her every time he wakes up and text her. A gentleman he Is also. He never asks of anything that'll make her upset. He likes her enough to call her every day.. without fail. Search for flowers for her, even though its in the middle of the morning. Yes, such a morning person. Thus, he cooks. He is obviously better than her, and eats pretty much anything she gives him. He doesn’t mind anything harsh that she says, because all he wants to do is hug her. He open doors, holds her stuff, and talks about her to his mum; which is, embarrassing. Dearly, he'll give $250 although his mother asks for a $100. He is a guy, a guy that is neither passing by nor staying but just a guy that makes every moment feels right. He is eager to buy her a cake, for her last year’s birthday that he missed. No matter how much she hesitates of him, he doesn’t – stop – caring. A guy of all sorts of credibility, asks permissions from mothers of their daughters, is he worth it? Dot dot dot.

Always try to believe the best out of everyone

of friends

pointless

selamat hari raya

:)

fly

Anni

happy birthday love

heartbeat

pick me up

new year

traits

..

stress release

:) :)

time wounds all heals

insanely head over heels

Do you?

big grin

100th post

haywire

back to schoool

let it be

birthday wishlist

i cant sleep

sigh

extremely cheesy

great weekend

floating

Mi amore

Eid ul-Fitr

Random Survey

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Funny+Creepy

I could imagine

Try

when i have enough

Ramadhan Mubarak

Random thoughts

doses of mushy

thankfulness

kinda cute

.....

things to do for lazy me

the great escape

Bali

tratatravel

Food for thought

last minute shoe, where are you?

what i love about today

crappy day

a friend

:)

roses are red

for you

hello

little things matter to us

addiction

love

during lunch break

hahah

morning

towards new

nak!

rolling on the bed

back to school!

haih

bored

caught up in your love with lyrics

to do list : a week before raya

me

worse poster

goshh

jennifer hudson - spotlight

dude

merci

burrp

MIA

lil food tripping

lets get personal