Try

It's really depressing by the type of friend that you have become due to what you're going through right now. It is a difficult thing to be dealing with a mid life crisis; work, love and family when everyone else is doing fine. I understand that at your age, opportunities are running low but i would rather see you be open about it instead of being unthoughtful/bashing others aimlessly and hurting those around you. I may not be a therapist but you need to know that people DO get out of this. I am HERE if you need someone to talk to and if you're having unnecessary doubts about yourself i will try my best to give you my own two cents, we've been through this before and i have told you countless of times that you are better than this.

However, judging by your actions recently, it's clear that you're overwhelmed by your own wall. The wall that keeps you separated from others who are actually trying to help. Treat this as a lesson and a meaningful experience to be learned from and accept it as it is. You're venturing on a lost cause when time isn't really getting any slower and eventually it would put you on the losing end if you continue to shell out like this. Instead, let it go and move on to so many other things out there that could lift you up. I'll always be happy for you whenever you've found your own true happiness. Sometimes, not everything that you want is what you need. This is as far as i go, you just need to find that strength inside of you to help/pull yourself out of this depressive cave.

I'm drained.