Feelings change - memories don't.

Oct 24, 2009

towards new

first, it is about acceptance. if u ever change your mind, think back. bring ur thoughts way back to the times when things are sweeter.
then, let it go. it is not that hard when you're not holding anything back. a grudge, etc.
it is doable, have faith.
move on.
feel better!

generally.

me, 'nak beli kasut..' (said it twice, in a different manner)
toby, 'dah tak ada duit tu, buat la cara tak ada duit. semua benda pun nak'
hahaha bungok. ouch. how can i restrain myself from beautiful things when everywhere i go,
i see things that i like. AND when i like it, i want it. BUT whenever i want it, I CANT afford it. i just wish that money grows on trees. cant wait to earn muh own muney, punteng kerja and pergi sopping!!!

Oct 17, 2009

nak!

its so unfair when both of my brother's are using Iphone now, thus comes my inner jealousy of having a new one too! its a battle between these two, the grey one E71 is the latest version of E63 however, the keypads are a little bit smaller and it doesnt come in red. I've practiced a number of times using my mum's blackberry qwerty keypads and i love it! i cant wait to get my hands on one of these. texxting will get so much better! daddy, birthday, please? :D

Oct 15, 2009

rolling on the bed

im determined to undermine all the worries that i have now, and live with it. today is the last attempt to correct my schedules align with my friend's as how it has been like before. I have made friends, and i love my friends, and now awkward as it is i have to enter a week's classes to a room of aliens. Macy, Wen Yi has been terribly nice, including Ahmed who accompanied me through the most boring classes that i wish i was asleep. I dont mind making friends, but it is still not the same without them - the ones i grew bitchy and obnoxious with. Furthermore, im grouped with another intake in which i know no one, and even though i try to know them it still needs effort and time to get to THAT stage where u fart, i fart, i dont care. Its just so demotivating? Im late for class, xoxo.

Sep 28, 2009

back to school!

hye. omigod for so long i've been staring at this blank post and that's the only word i could come up with, hye. it has been so long since i actually studied something (5months to be exact) therefore, there is some lack thereof of fresh ideas in my little pesky brain. i wish i have something really intelligent and smart to say but at the moment i really dont have any. It’s getting quite old whining all the time you know in your head about all the things that could go wrong when u should do something else. Im getting a bit paranoid about getting back out there, into the fields of educated, smart ppl who perpetually made me into this state? But, everything starts somewhere so lets see how my first lecture goes, Market Analysis for Private Investors. Happy days.

So, since its still the joyous month of eid mubarak, im going to share some of my memories. The first day, was very conventional but very delayed. The clock stopped in our presence. As usual for these past two years, in the absence of my dada there is only one resort for every raya, negeri 9. The first day itself, i woke up at 10am or so, and seriously duit raya was the first thing in mind. Food, was second. Our family was running around the house cleaning and preparing for raya on the day itself. In slow motion, everyone was tired god knows what we did the night before.. ha! My mother just came back from Genève so she was actually the one who interrupts the day and made it looooong and slooooooooow. Its more of a laid back raya.

Thus, we managed to arrive at nenek’s house by 4++pm. This year has to be the most least number of houses that we went to (boleh kira dgn jari kot) due to my mother’s jet-lag recovery. We were damn lazy to pick our melon size asses to visit cousins that we stayed at our nenek’s house and let them visit us. Ha! Genius ke tak. Plus, I got to collect ang pau’s in just one place. Love it. On a brighter note, lesser cuisines to baham, lesser consumption of guilt. Everyday I get to see relatives from distant areas and it was very tiring to update and get feedbacks on every one’s life. The normal conversation usually starts like, ‘ehhh dah besar dah! Lama x jumpa. Belajar lagi ke skrg?’ bla bla till the ultimate question in which I hate them for it ‘dah ada boyfriend dah?’ bla bla bla. Everyone was there, so we had our famous barbecue like really old school barbecue with sabut kelapa, woods, situated near a hutan.. Im terrible at cooking, but I am superb at helping. Tolong makan that is. Hahah.

Really, everything that I consumed has been correlating into my thighs, tummy and even chest. I can feel that my b**bs are expanding with the dignity of rendang kawah Aunty Mon. Seriously, if I were any man, I would want to marry her because she is the best cook in the universe. The kitchen is literally her favourite place, I asked! (and the only place I often see her at) hence, where all the delicious magic happens. Confirm tambah!

I think that should be enough for raya posting because it would take ages to stop. Oh and to name a few of the mercun’s that my brother conveniently had his friend shipped them in from Thailand was all the big guns ; mercun merdeka, mercun lemang, mercun crazy robot, thunder king etc. On a brighter note, Im excited that im going back to college to remind myself that I am doing something with my life. Plus, I miss my friends mucho. So happy raya everybody and maaf zahir batin -

Sep 17, 2009

haih

Dear Nur Zahirah,
Apologies for the delay in replying to you.
I can advise that a registration tab should now be visible in your MYUWE pages.
Kind Regards
Helen Dewar
Collaborative Programmes Administrator

no, it is still not there, i cant seem to find it anywhere in myUWE page. unless im blind forgodssake.